Yunhan

2012-02-02T21:17:00.001+08:00

I really broke down 2day when I was going home. Cried really terribly ... The one I treat as if he is my real brother told me tat I'm Juz his best friend . I was lyk damn sad ! And he hurt me to the core ! I didn't expect tat he would say I'm Juz his best friend ! And now I noe the reason y for so long he no longer call me Jie alr, coz he Juz treated me as his best friend tats all . By saying tat he really really hurt me ! I've been giving in so much to him , dote him so much lyk nobody business . I admit tat sometimes I'm quite strict wif him and have to discipline him coz I dun wan to see him doing and saying the wrong things. Coz I really concern for him but he treat it lyk rubbish ! I do so much for him yet wat I get was him telling me tat I'm Juz his best friend when I treated him as if he is my real brother . How stupid can I be ?! Stupid until I still think tat he still treat me as his sister. I'm really so stupid and dumb . Haizz ... The person I lyk dun lyk me then now my brother so call dun wan anymore ! I feel tat nobody wants me . How sad tat can be ?! The person tat i lyk dun lyk me its alr sad enough then even now my closest brother also say such hurting words to me, and so call dun wan me anymore . Tats makes me lyk freaking sad and hurt ?! But they dun even noe how I feel . And it was my first time I cried so badly over my god brother . I cried until tat badly bcoz I really treated him as my real brother , but he say such things to me which hurt me to the core ! And I'm crying my hearts out ! I really did alot for him but tis is how he treat me . Even if he dun have me he still have his another sister anw . I think he prefer Stacey ba. But I really dun understand one thing, I'm the one closer wif him , dote him damn much , giving in to him most of the times but y did he call her Jie when she did not do tat much as me . I got really jealous when he called her Jie instead of me. Tis is so unfair ! She did not do a single thing and yet he call her Jie ! Wat the shit ! ARGH ! forget it , I decided not to care anymore ! I shall leave his life . Maybe tat Stacey is his better Jie ba. I'm not his gd Jie anw, lyk I said I've failed . Although I dun bear to do tis coz no matter wat I still treat him as my real brother , it hurts me more to let him go and leave his life , but I noe maybe I have to . I'm really tired alr, I think perhaps is really time for me to leave . But now I Juz wan say somethings to him :

Di , Erm maybe it will be the really last time I will call u Di alr, and sadly it's in my blog tat it will be the last time. I Juz wan to say srys to u tat I have failed in being ur Jie, and I really very hurt and sad when u told me tat I'm Juz ur best friend. Coz I really treated u as my real brother, I really dun noe y I stopped calling me Jie anymore, I really hope tat u can tell me the real reason , and if u happened to read my blog then u can tell me ba, maybe by then I may have graduated . But thx for all the things u have done for me . Even the small little things, I really appreciate it . To me , u r really a awesome brother ! I'm srys if sometimes I'm abit harsh and hard on u, but I really wan u to noe tat I'm doing out of my concern and care for u. That's all . Sigh .. Ok , I Juz hope tat ur another Jie which is Stacey can treat u better than I do, dote u more than I do, giving u the attention and concerns more than I do. And be a better Jie than me, since u call her Jie mean tat u wan her to be ur Jie more so I understand. Maybe u prefer her more ba. And also pls study hard ahh ! Got to learn to grow up lerh ok, u no longer a small boyy Liao, dun keep whine-ing . I think leaving ur life will be better for u ba and maybe for me also. But I really dun wan but maybe I have to ba. I'm really tired alr. Juz take cares of urself ok ?? But no matter wat u r still my Di , Juz tat I'm not ur Jie Anymore. Juz wan to say really thx and iloveyou my little baby brother ! <3

2012-01-26T22:54:00.001+08:00

It's seems lyk me and my stupid brother is ok ... In tat sense . But I'm still not ok actually . Juz tat i nv tell him all the things. I feel lyk telling him , but I think it's no use . At the same time I wan to let him noe how I'm feeling . But I dun noe how ?! He is always not serious , even when I tell him serious stuff he also lyk dun give a damn , then wat for tell him when he is so immature . I really wonder when he will grow up seriously and be more mature ! So tat I Wun be afraid to tell him serious stuff , everything I tell him he thinks it's a joke lyk tat . Then how should I tell him so tat he can be serious and so tat I can tok it out wif him ??!! Everytime asy wan tok things out also nv say wan HTHT Also nv ! Haizz ... I really dun noe wat to say larh ! I really feel lyk telling him all these while I'm not ok actually ! I have been struggling alot ! But I Juz dun dare tell him ! And recently I also realise tat I nv call him Di alr, coz I feel weird to call him Di when he dun even call me Jie ! Whenever he call my name I will be disappointed and sad and in my heart I will say can't u Juz call me Jie ! Haizz ... I really feel tat we r no longer close . Ppl may see tat we r close but in the fact we r no longer close alr . He is closer to some other ppl, I admit tat I'm jealous ! Yes I am ! Forget it ! Wat for treat him lyk my real brother when he dun treat me the same way ?! Lyk seriously , shall leave tis aside ! See how it goes as day goes by, no point keep struggling wif tis matter ! I'm too tired alr ! I'm Juz very sad , disappointed , jealous, angry ! Basically all the negative emotions ! All these things happened also bcoz of me coz lyk I said I have nv been a gd jie to him . All my fault , Im the one to blame ! I'm putting all the wrong on myself ! Yes its my fault ! 😓 I'm srys . Really srys .

2012-01-26T00:10:00.001+08:00

2day my stupid brother said srys to me in a Whiney way ... But I dun noe how to respond actually. I so called ignored him coz I really dun noe wat to do ! And I think he tot tat I was angry wif him but I was not, I didn't dare to tell him tat I was angry wif myself and I feel tat I'm such a useless sister to him. And blaming myself tat i did not try harder to stop him from continue gambling and I have really really failed in being his sister coz I can't even get the respect from him ! Isn't tat funny ??!! I'm his sister but he dun even listen to me ! See, how much have I failed ! =.= failed badly man ! =.= I'm seriously a useless sister , I think he only sees me as a sister tat always gets angry wif him, and being so ridiculous and unreasonable ! Yes yes , maybe he really thinks tat way ... Wat a sister am I sia ??!! Lyk seriously ! =.= maybe I'm not fit to be his sister ba, maybe the stacey will be a better sister to him, I'm Juz a petty, unreasonable sister to him, yes I think I am. I'm Juz so disappointed wif myself tat I can't even be a gd sister to him and treat him better . Yes, I have failed in tis area. I acknowledge tat I'm not a gd sister to him. I Juz wan to apologise to him, I'm srys Zachary , I not a gd jie to u , pls forgive me . Srys for always being so petty and unreasonable . Perhaps I have nv give in my best . I'm really srys Zachary ! 😓

2012-01-24T22:50:00.001+08:00

It's been so long ever since I blog . I think now is a gd time to blog ba . I'm having lots of feelings rite now .... Tis few days some things happened . Lyk 2day went to visit my 姑姑 , and my dad and her wife was thr , and when I reach my 姑姑 hse I saw a very small boyy , and I asked my mum hu is he and my mum told me tat it was my dad's son ! 😓 at tat point I did not say anything but in my heart I was angry I guess .. I was shock too , and the boyy was lyk 1 year old plus .. And I didn't noe anything until I saw him 2day ! Actually I was confuse too ... I also dun noe y ??!! Lots of feelings Juz came in ... Haizz .. I think I was jealous too .. Hmmmm .... Ok, shall not elaborate anymore . Yesterday I was lyk damn angry wif my stupid brother ! Seriously he is damn stubborn ! I told him not to gamble alr he still insist ! I seriously dun noe wat is his problem ! And in the end he really lost ! And I was rite ! =.= but he still continue ! ARGH ! tat makes me more angry ! But when I think thru again instead of being angry wif him I was angry wif myself instead coz I'm at fault too ... Coz I did not try my best to persuade him to stop, and I also realise tat actually I dun have tat much of authority to let him listen to me and gain the respect from him even though I am his so call " Jie " all along I tot he would listen to me coz I am his " Jie " but yesterday I realise I dun have tat much power to let him listen to me . And it really makes me think tat I really have failed in being his Jie. Coz I can't even gain the basic respect form him ! Then wat for be his Jie rite ?! And I also realise tat he also nv call me Jie alr , everytime I feel lyk telling him tat for such a long time he have not been calling me Jie alr but I Juz dun dare to tell him. I really miss him calling me Jie . And tat time on twitter I saw him calling Stacey Jie , and I got jealous coz he did not even call me Jie anymore but he called other ppl Jie . Tis is so disappointing but I did tell him a single thing bout tis and I did not tell him how I felt also , actually he also lied to me , he told me tat Stacey was his cousin ! =.= it's all bullshit can ! And I really believed ! Until Edna told me tat they r not cousins ! I felt so cheated ! I was lyk ... Y must he lie to me tat they r cousins ??!! Y can't Juz tell me tat Stacey is his Jie ??!! Y must he lie to me ??!! Although Im angry wif him bout tis thing I also did not tell him. I Juz kept everything to myself . and all tis things Juz proved tat I really have failed in being his Jie, I'm not a gd Jie to him actually , I also feel tat our brother - sister ship is getting further and further apart. Although he feels tat everything it's ok , but to me everything it's not ok . But I dun have the courage to tell him all these things and how I'm feeling coz I think tat he will not care ba or after I tell him everything he will Juz Orh . So I really find no point telling him. I Juz feeling sad , angry, disappointed wif myself ! Y can't I be a better Jie to him ??!! I really tried to be one but perhaps I did not try harder. So how can I be a better Jie to him ??!! I really have no clue. Perhaps I need a break .. 😓 I'm Juz too tired ... Think I'm breaking down soon ... 😭

2012-01-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

LIKE A FIRE .

Like a fire shut up in my bones

I want the world to know You are God

With a passion burning deep within

I want the world to know that You live

Let Your presence come and saturate

Every part of me, make me new

Let Your Spirit come and move within

Fill me once again 'cause I need more

Jesus I'm desperate for You

Jesus I'm hungry for You

Jesus I'm longing for You

'Cause Lord You are all I want 

Come like a flood and saturate me now

You're all I want

Come like the wind and sweep throughout this place

You're all we want

love tis sone alot , super nice :) hehes ^.^

2012-01-10T00:07:00.001+08:00

I really feel tat I have failed being his Jie. I really think tat all my concerns for him he dun even give a damn. Maybe he thinks tat I'm Juz trying to be a busybody, keep asking him is he ok. I think he also got irritated. Nvm ... I alr told him tat I not going to care bout him anymore lerh, wat he wan to do he will do and wat he wan to say he will say, and anything happens to him next time he also dun need to tell me, I dun have the rites to noe, it's his life not mine, wat for be a busybody ! I think he will be more than happy tat i dun have to care bout him anymore. Maybe tat is wat he wants so i Juz grand him his wish. And I also really tired alr, dun feel lyk caring alr, very tired of it ! Everytime the same thing happens, nv change ! He every time say he will change but he did not . Not Juz him, I also did not change so I'm also at fault. Everytime I will get disappointed when he did the mistake again and again when he said he would change, I think I lyk forcing him to change, and he feel forced too . So I think from now on . He wan to do wat he will do, or wateva things he wan say, scolding vulgarities, he will say. I'm not going to do anything anymore, IM REALLY TIRED OF ALL THESE ALR ! He dun wan change I also can't force him and stop him. Sometimes I really ask myself y I treat him so gd when he always treat me so bad and still dote him lyk nobody's business ?? Am I crazy or wat ??!! But wateva he do I still love him and also dote him . Coz I noe tat i really treated him as my real brother. And if I'm his Jie , I will not hate him or wat but still give my best to him even if he treat me not very gd, maybe i should not treat him so gd anymore coz he is taking me for granted and throwing my care and concern to one side. Sometimes he say and do things tat will hurt me but I still forgive him coz I will not hold any grudges against my own brother. Whether he mean it anot, I still forgive, but he always nv learn his lesson, over and over again he hurt me. Haizz .... Really sick and tired alr ! Forgive, forgive and forgive, say , say and say , nag , nag and nag ! Everything Juz go in one ear and come out from the other ear . I seriously say until I dun wan say Liao ! perhaps I need some time to cool down and reflect all these while y am I doing so much for him ??!! Or should I Juz let go of tis brother tat I really love and dote so much, in other words to end our brother-sister ship. Should I ??!! I really need to think thru I dun noe ... Okok , shall end here...

2012-01-05T23:05:00.001+08:00

Almost 1 week of Skool only , and I'm feeling the stress ! Scary sia ! Lots of things need to catch up , higher expectation from the teachers, Haizz ! =.= I scared I can't cope well, coz I got more responsibilities tis year, I'm afraid tat I will mess up everything :( hopefully I Wun. But I noe tat God will still be thr to help me and hold me by the right hand ! Thx God , pls come and assure me again :)

2012-01-04T21:19:00.001+08:00

Studying my physics now. Juz doing revision for wat I have learn for 2day lesson. Hahas. Here is some things tat I have memorised :

SOLID :
- have fixed shape and volume.
- usually hard and rigid; a larger force is needed to change its shape.
- High density.
- incompressible.

LIQIUD :
- have fixed volume but no fixed shape.
- high density.
- incompressible.

GAS :
- have no fixed volume and fixed shape.
- low density.
- compressible.

Yeah ! I memorised it by hard alr ! I got to start gearing myself lerh. Study bit by bit so wun so stress. Hahas. I think if I continue lyk tis I will be able to do well if I consistantly do my revision ! Juz got to discipline myself ! yunhan jiayous ! :)

2011-12-07T23:18:00.000+08:00

Chubby ! imissyou so much ! <3 I dun noe when will be the time i will be able to seeyou again. coz im still having a cold war wif my stupid brother ! until the cold war end then i can seeyou again ! :( hmmm, how long would tat take ?? its been 1 week tat i did not tok to him ! wat should i do now ??!! should i continue to ignore him ?? i think i kind of noe y i cant forgive him coz i dun forgive myself, cant forgive myself coz i repeat the mistake, lyk my brother, repeat the same mistake, so i cant forgive myself and so i find it hard to forgive when he make the same mistake, and both of the reason for not forgiving its bcoz the thing did not happen juz once. hmmm, now i noe y ! but wat should do now if i now tis ??!! although i noe tat he is at fault but its also not fair tat i dun forgive juz of his mistake rite ?? lyk wat God says, forgive not 7 times but 77 times, and ppl also say forgive juz lyk how God have forgiven us ! so wat rites do i have to not forgive ?! but i find it hard !! argh !! how how ??!!! Aiya ! i dun noe larh, i very luan now !!!!! :(

2011-11-30T22:12:00.000+08:00

Argh ! im lyk very angry and disappointed now ! =.= i asked myself tis ques, wat for i keep asking the person to stop when the person is not willing to change, isnt tat forcing ?? but wat if i ask the person to stop is bcoz out of concern and love for them ?? it sound so contridicting rite ?? then now i dun noe wat to do now ! should i juz leave the person alone ??? but leaving the person alone also doesnt help also leh, then how sia ?? then i also dun noe how alr ! =.= argh !!!!!! i feel so helpless now ! =.= help help help !!! T.T

2011-11-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

Im lyk super angry 2day ! wif my stupid brother ! and tis time im really really angry ! :@ i juz feel tat he lyk making use of me only, when he need me then he will be close to me then when dun need me juz kick me to one side, wat a ' WONDERFUL ' brother i have rite ??!! I now then realise tis is the way how he treat me, and i think from the start he dun even treat me as his jie. juz a object tat he can make use of. i only feel close wif him whenever he need me, the other times he will not even bother bout me or when he got nobody to go wif then he will come and find me, hahs ! lyk a joke ! tis is y he call me ' jie ' i guess. He said sometimes we tok to each other bout our problems, hmmm.. i think most of the time is i share wif him my problems ba, since when did he even really share his problem wif me ?! ask him also nv share. msg him nv reply, i feel lyk im lyk an idiot lyk tat most of the time is i am the one asking, and most of the time no reply. lyk a fool seriously ! but wat can i do ?! im the one tat wants to do it ! serve me rite ok ?! i wan to do it then no point complaining. im lyk the one keep giving in all these while, im really tired of being his jie, yes really really tired ! being his jie is not easy not getting more and more tiring ! sometimes i really dun feel lyk being his jie anymore, but i did not coz i noe tat no matter wat happens he is my brother, and i tell myself tat i dun wan to disown tis brother tat i have and he is the closest brother tat i ever had, also dun bear to leave him alone coz i really care bout him and treating him as if he is really my real brother. whenever he did sth wrong and although all he can do is juz to whine and say srys then after tat i will forgive him but most of the time he will disappoint me but i still give in. But 2day i realise im getting tired of this. i really dun noe tis time round can i still forgive him how i use to. im juz afraid tat he will disappoint me again. haizz.... but now im lyk still pissed off ! argh !

2011-11-04T00:15:00.001+08:00

so photogenic ^.^


The hamster so cute ^.^

The hamster cute rite, hahas. its the one i say tat i will buy, hahas. and i bought it ! :) but its for my stupid brother, hahas. i think he really lyk it alot, hahas :) i purposely dun wan let him noe tat i bought it, but in the end i give it to him :) he lyk very happy when i give it to him. hahas. its a surprise from me, hahas. The hamster its really cute ^.^ i think i really fall in love wif tat hamster :) and not yet give name for tat hamster sia :( my stupid brother larh ! =.= must faster give it a name, i dun wan the hamster to be nameless :( hahas, i really love tat hamster alot, and the hamster very photogenic :) hahas. :)

2011-10-23T21:54:00.001+08:00

OMGosh ! Tis is so cute :) its a syrian hamster :) super cute rite ?! :) hahas. Syrian hamster is a bigger version of a hamster, hahas. Juz now went to the pet shop and see the syrian hamster, its sooooooooooooo cute ! Im so going to buy tat hamster for my stupid brother as his birthday present so i can play wif the hamster. :) and juz now the pet shop owner let me touch and carry the hamster, so nice to touch, and its so cute ! :) i will buy tat brown syrian hamster, i will put deposit 2moro so no one will buy tat brown hamster ! :) its really really cute <3 and i buy also to give my stupid brother a surprise, hehes :) i will not tell him tat i buy until i meet him tat day to celebrate his birthday, hahas. secret, hehes >.< shhhhhhhh... I MUST BUY TAT BROWN SYRIAN HAMSTER ! <3

2011-10-20T00:28:00.000+08:00

A very happy birthday to my dearest mummy & my little brother Zachary Howe <3

To my mummy : dearest mummy ! <3 happy birthday ! <3 Thx for everything u have done for me :) u r really a awesome mummy tat i ever have. Although sometimes i really make u angry and not being a gd daughter but u still love me and dote me so much. u r the best ! <3

To my little brother : My dearest little brother ! <3 happy birthday ! <3 Thx for all the things u have done for me although not alot but still appreciate it :) although most of the times u make me angry but i still loveyou larh ! <3 Must be more mature lerh yeah :) actually sometimes i do miss ur whines i think coz im used to ur whines alr :) hahas. Anw, u r really a nice brother to me and i really very glad to have a brother lyk u tat brings so much laughter and joy to me, and also tears and anger, hahas. i really very blessed to have a brother lyk u for me to dote and loveyou, and to show my care and concern for u, im really honoured tat u give me the opportunity to be ur big sister :) hahas. u r juz really awsome ! iloveyou stupid brother ! <3

2011-10-12T22:25:00.004+08:00

What Faith Can Do

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes and make a new beginning
Anyone can feel the ache
You think it’s more than you can take
But you're stronger, stronger than you know
Don’t you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

It doesn’t matter what you’ve heard
Impossible is not a word
It’s just a reason for someone not to try
Everybody’s scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It’ll be alright
Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do

Overcome the odds

You don't have a chance
(That’s what faith can do)
When the world says you can’t
It’ll tell you that you can!

I’ve seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn’t ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I’ve seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That’s what faith can do
That's what faith can do!
Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

This song super nice, i think somehow spoke to me during cell when Jas played. I think it juz somehow encouraged me :) hahas. It somehow reminded me tat God can do much more things when we put our faith in God, and he will still perform miracles. hahas. in my life, my family, my results, my friends, etc. all its takes us is to just have FAITH IN HIM ! its as simple as tat ! :) no point making a big fuss out of it, or being paraniod ! it doesnt solve the problem ! :)

2011-10-11T15:29:00.001+08:00

Daddy God, i very sad yesterday, coz of my POA paper 2. I got net loss sia, then all my friends get net profit, wahh, so sianzz sia ! :( i very scared tat my POA get very low grades sia. actually i was aiming for a A1 derh then i dun think now can get alr, haizz. i really hope tat i can get a A2. But God thr nth i can do but to trust in u, no point complaining also, it will not change anything. God, no matter wat happens i will trust u. God bless me wif my results so tat i can glorify u wif my results. God u r in control, u have the final say ! :) God take away all my fears and assure me God ! :) thx God ! <3

2011-10-06T23:52:00.003+08:00

Frequently remind yourself that God is with you, that He will never fail you, that you can count upon him. Say these words, "God is with me, helping me."

- Norman Vincent Peale

Daddy God, i got alot of things i wan to tell u. Actually im feeling very scared now coz of my maths paper, i very scared tat i will not be able to pass my maths. coz if i nv pass maths then i cannot go up to sec 5 lerh. i very scared tat i will go ITE. I really really very scared tat i will fail my maths sia. T.T How God ?? I really wan to go to sec 5 :( And God i also noe tat i dun have to fear coz u r wif me and also bcoz u have the final say so i dun need to be scared, but the fear juz come. God pls take away all those fears i have and give me peace and wisdom, and assure me tat u r wif me, helping me and i dun have to be afraid coz u hold my future in ur hands. And God im so dead in my geo paper i think i will fail, coz i leave my LORMS ques blank as i dun noe wat to write, haizz. God i juz wan to get into sec 5 if its ur will God, let me get 15points or below. although as i type out " let me get 15points or below " i doubt if really u will let me get 15point or below. but God i noe tat all tat i have to do now its to have faith in u, God no matter wat fear and doubts i have i will still trust in u God. Coz u have a plan tat will prosper and not to harm me, yes God i will believe u. Amen ! :) thx you God for everything ! :) loveyou God ! <3

2011-10-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

really feel tat now is not the time to get into a relationship. coz at our age, all of us r still growing and we r all immature, not even fit to be in a relationship. i really wonder if they really noe the meaning of love, since they whole day saying 'iloveyou' to each other. everytime see ppl break and patch for so many times, i really feel irritated sometimes coz they dun even noe wat is love. and being in a relationship is not as easy as they think. some even treat it as a game =.= tis is ridiculous. now then i really noe y do we have to wait for the rite time to be in a relationship. and its always the best to be wif ur mr right :) hahas. now i will focus on my studies and not think bout relationship. although i lyk someone now but i will wait for the rite time and of course if its God's will. pray hard tat he is my mr right :) hahas. should enjoy being single now :) hahas. carefree and nobody will care. tats the best thing bout being single :) hahas. okok. i have decided to be single until its God's timing for me to be in a relationship :) single is AWESOME ! :) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAS ! :D <3

God i wan to have a deeper relationship wif u <3

2011-09-24T21:43:00.001+08:00

whenever we set out to do something good, even when we're certain that God wants us to do it, we shouldn't be surprised when the situation gets worse before it gets better. this doesn't prove that we're doing the wrong thing; it just reminds us that we need God to accomplish everything. -- Julie Ackerman Link.

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2011-08-31T21:25:00.002+08:00

Haizz, lots of things juz happened. i really dun noe wat to do. im really very helpless now, i seriously dun noe wat he wan and i dun noe how tok to him alr. We r juz getting further and further away, i really hope tat we can tok things out. But i really dun noe wat i can do now, coz i think he is angry wif me and thr is nth i can do. Either i wait for him to contact me or i make the first move to go and contact him. ARGH ! i really dun noe larh ! i dun wan to let tis things to affect my mood to study and next week is lyk 'N' levels liao ! =.= i wan to settle it asap. i dun wan to drag anymore, the longer i drag the more i will think. Am i even extra-ing his life ??? the things i do is really out of concern coz i really treat him as my real brother, but he juz dun get it ! im really trying my best to be his gd sister but now im really really tired ! :( and i seriously dun noe wat he wan, haizz. how i wish i can read his mind, but im not God. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH ! WAT SHOULD I DO NOW ??????!!!!!!!!! i really hope tat everything will be fine soon :) GOD HELP ME ! :(

2011-08-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

Its been so long tat i have blog, hahas. 2day juz finish my prelims, and i think tat i will fail my humans and POA :( haizz. imi lyk damn sad tat i will fail my POA paper lorh. juz hope tat all my subj will be ok ba. hahas. Time really flies, about 2 more weeks to 'N' levels. im lyk damn scared larh. so fast 'N' levels liao lorh. but im really looking forward to after 'N' levels. i wan to go and work and earn money. :) hahas. i really hope tat when i get back my 'N' levels results tat day, i can go up to my friends and say, we have made it to sec 5 2gether. i really hope tat i will do well for 'N' levels and looking forward to tell tat to my friends :) hahas. Juz wish all my friends gd luck and all the best for 'N' levels and they will study hard too :) and for me i really need to start studying now. its lyk less than 1 month to 'N' levels alr, cannot play liao. yunhan u better buck up and start studying b4 u really regret ! jiayous yunhan :)

2011-05-14T21:50:00.000+08:00

MYE juz ended ! :) hahas. only can slack for a short time and i got to get back to studying, MYE over doesnt mean 'N' levels is over, so got to get back to studying soon, hahas. actually very reluctant to study. haizz. but i promise God tat i will honour him wif my 'N' level results so i have to study, hahas. Coz God is really really very gd, so i wan to honour him wif my studies :) i really love God man ! <3 hahas. yunhan jiayous ! dun forget wat u have promise God ok ? u got to work hard for ur 'N' levels yeah ! studystudystudy !

2011-04-02T22:14:00.000+08:00

Have some misunderstanding for the past few days, and i feel tat somehow the person is juz ignoring me in some way, i think i am too much in my actions alr, i know i'm doing over the limit, and now my retribution, the person is ignoring me alr, serve me rite ! tis is my punishment ! I deserve it !

2011-03-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

Holidays started, but not lyk one, almost everyday have to go back skool for CCA, yesterday and 2day my little brother also nv go band :( coz he went to malaysia! so sianzz sia, without him in band so wired, but 2moro can see him liao!!!! so happy!!!!! i super miss him sia! <3 finally after so long can get to see him alr :) hahas :) holidays is boring and tired!!!!! :( lalalala... so sianzz! =.=

2011-02-18T21:26:00.000+08:00

Common test is finally over. hahas :) hopetat my hard work will pay off, except for my social studies, i comfirm fail social studies alr. sianzz! =.= Now concentrate on SYF, quite stress actually ! But no matter wat i got to give my 100% and hope tat our band can get a silver, hahas. i'm lyk super bored now! :( nth to do!!! lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala! Sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo boredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!

2011-01-26T23:23:00.001+08:00

2day we have cell group reunion dinner, and we ate STEAMBOAT! hahas :) super cool, it was my first time eating steamboat as a cell, hahas. super fun larh! hehes :) Hanyi also went :) hahas :) we really enjoyed ourselves :D really have a great time. 2day was a awesome day! :) hahas. 2moro having CIP looking forward to it, hahas. coz we r going to serve the elderly at clementi. It will be a joy to serve them :) I think 2moro will be a great time :) hahas. shall update the next time! :) ending here, Byes. :)

2011-01-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

HELOS :) Skool is becoming more and more stressful! I'm super tired! I fell lyk I may die anytime, lols. i will not on9 too often as i have to study lyk mad alr, coz 'N' levels will come really soon directly in ur face, so i got not much time left, all i can for tis whole year is to study study and study! Jiayous yunhan, u can do it! :) hahas. but most importantly i need GOD's strength to do all these things, yeah. perseverance! hahas. All the best for me ba, and all my friends of course :) shall end here, lazy to type, and i feel very sleepy now *yawn* Zzzzz. sweet dreams.

2011-01-08T12:08:00.004+08:00

First week of skool was ok :) many tests coming up, very stress!! =.= i hope i can cope well, and i got to start studying lyk 2day! if not i will nv get started, so i need to start studying 2day! to prepare myself for the different test tat is coimng up and also for 'N' levels. i got to control myself from using comp too much, if not i will be distracted! got to have selpf-discipline! All my teachers are pushing us to work towards 'N' levels so we also got to do our parts to study and work hard also, it take 2 hands to clap, so we need to co-operate wif our teachers and not let our teachers to scold us and wasting time in class, got to be focused! I believe if we all work hard and co-operate wif the teachers,we can make it for our 'N' levels, so Jiayous to all my friends, and myself too :) Lets work hard 2gether :D and God pls give me strength to face all the challenges tat i'm going thru rite now, and help me to cope well for all the things tat is happening in skool, i cant do all these wif my own strength but wif ur strength i can! coz nth is impossible for u and the devil keep tempting me wif different things but i will not give in to the devil bcoz u will crush the devil under my feet and i will win the devil, God pls help to to stay strong and courages, i dun wan to let the devil win! and God forgive me for not being responsible and treating it lyk nth. I wan to be serious and responsible for it, pls give me another chance and i will cherish every moment i have now b4 its too late. help me GOD, bcoz it belongs to u not mine. Since u have put me thr so i wan to give in my best, i dun wan to waste another year juz lyk tat. GOD help me to love!

My teachers for tis year:

EL: Miss Lim CL
MA: Mr Raja
CHEM: Mr Lai WL
PHY: Mr Asan
MT: Miss Lim KW
SS: Miss Chong YK
GEO: Mrs Tee
POA: Miss Sujeetha
PE: Mr Koh SL
FORM TEACHER: Miss Lim KW

All my teachers nv change, all the same as last year, thx God if not i think we will not be able to understand if thr is new teacher teaching and my class may not wan to listen to the new teacher, my class is very fortunate to have the same teacher and have all the gd teachers teaching our class, really wan thx God for tat! :) and we got to cherish our teachers and not take them for granted, we may not lyk the scoldings and naggings they gave, but its all for our own gd and they even bother to scold and nag us is bcoz they care bout us, if they dun even care they will not even bother to scold and nag and keep reminding us, so we all must learn to apprecaite our teachers. hahas :D

2011-01-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

Hey ppl! Its 2011! Happy New Year! srys nv update my blog for very long, lazy update >.< hahas. I juz wan to thx different ppl in my life for the past 1 year. :)

AVELINE: Hey thx for all the things u have done for me, all the encouragement u gave and always sit down wif me to tok whenever u noe tat i'm not ok, and tis year its 'O' levels, must jiayous ok? study hard ahh! All the best! loveyou! <3

JIAXUAN: Hey jie! U have been an awesome sister to me! :) thx for all the letters u gave, hahas. and for sharing wif me ur problems, i hope tat we can continue to stay tis close yeah :) hahas, must study hard tis year yeah! i'm sure u can do it :) dun give up yeah! Jiayous! loveyou jie! <3

JASON: Hey PANDA! Thx for being such a wonderful BFF to me :) hahas. thx for all the joy and laughter u gave :) hahas. thx for all the encouragement u gave me, and always bullying me! :( i noe u enjoyed the bullying me part rite, :( haizz, xi guan jiu hao. lols. anw, thx for everything, hahas. u r awesome! :D 'N' levels lerh ahh! must study hard yeah! :) same for me, hahas. lets work hard 2gether, hehes :) Jiayous! :D

NELSON: Hey kor! thx for being a great kor to me, i really appreiciate everything u have done, thx for all the joy u have given me :) i pray tat u will continue to hold on to GOD tightly yeah, dun let go of GOD! anw 'O' levels yeah! must jiayous ahh! study hard ok? we can study 2gether also, hahas, must jiayous ahh! all the best! :D

2moro is skool, not really prpared for it, 'N' lebels also, :( very scared! but no matter wat i still have to face the fact, i juz got to tell myself tat GOD IS WIF ME! hahas :) hope everything will be fine in skool 2moro. hahas. shall end my post here. update bout my skool wif detail again! byes ppl! :)

2010-12-29T15:00:00.001+08:00

Srys for the super late update bout the A.D camp, and here's the post, hahas. :) Camp A.D was awesome man! :) Really love Camp A.D! <3 hahas. God really did sth really deep in my heart, which is sth tat i dun noe how to put to words, its juz really really awesome! :) God spoke to me bout lots of stuff and he change sth tat is inside of me. Now i shall go into details bout the camp :)

DAY 1:

woke up at 7plus, so early! lols. Then text wif jiaxuan, do my stuff, double check if i got bring all my stuff. Meeting west zoners at 9.00 am for breakfast but i was abit late. lols. coz i was double checking my stuff, and pack some stuff last min so late, then my bag was lyk so fat and heavy! lesson to learn not to bring too much things for camp, lols. bring too much stuff liao. lols >.< meet them at mos burger then the rest eat i nv eat, lols. instead i went to buy bubble tea =.= i buy to drink at salvation army, lols. then me and adel last min go buy comb, luckily we got the comb, hahas. we all gathered at clementi mrt station to meet the rest then we waited for Joash very long, lols. then we all at mrt station take photo and running here and thr, super funny, lyk some fools lyk tat >.< lols. then we all went to take bus 184 to go salvation army, when we reach salvation army, we all went to take our attendance then we sat lyk a circle and discuss wat to perform for the day 3. and we all decided to do MTV, lols. cool. hahas. I lyk the song point of different! super nice the song, hahas. :D Then when all the other zone reach alr, we split into our groups and settle down to get ready for games! hahas. The games we play is station games, was fun and need lots of team work, hahas. And PANDA injured his toe, when i saw his toe i was lyk... speechless.. comfirm very pain derh, he told me say his kick until the stone, OMGosh! soooooooo pain! lols. bleeding some more. But i think now ok lerh ba, hahas. All the games was interesting, and fun. hehes. after the games we gather back to salvation army and settle down for a short evaluation, then the camp com assign us to our rooms to rest. luckily my room only got 9 ppl, no need squeeze wif so many ppl. hahas. Me, jiaern, nadine and qiaofen take 1 room hahas, all the west zone, hahas :) And i got to noe 2 gurls they r yan yu, and yan jun. They r very cute! :D hahas. got to make friends wif them :) I got to leave my room early coz my group serving for dinner, then when we reach level 2 not much ppk thr, lols. but our job was quite easy we juz have to give out the boxes of food to each table, hahas. the food was ok. not bad, hahas. After dinner was service time :) super excited! The pastor was a young ang moh! very handsome, hahas. the sermon was really gd, it tok bout an encounter wif GOD! was really cool! God really move in our midst! I really sense God's presence so strongly when i'm helping out the usher. But after helping, i was juz standing at the spot and i felt tat i need an encounter wif God, and immeadiately the power of God touch me, it was so awesome! most od the ppl got an encounter wif him :) really gd to have an encounter wif God ! :) service ended around 10 plus, 11? i think not very sure. but i noe we all slept at around 12.40 lyk tat. SUPER TIRED!

DAY 2:

Woke up around 7.45 we all very lazy to get out of our bed, lols. We all did not sleep well, coz the air-con too cold alr, they all on untill 18 degree! its lyk super cold. Then we all quickly go change and wash up, then get ready for devotion. Devotion was cool too, hahas. After devotion went to makan! :) hahas. super hungry, hehes. The breakfast was nice and yummy, hahas. Then after breakfast was SERVICE TIME! yeah! :) morning service was super awesome! God still can move even though its in the morning, lols. God really did sth deep in my heart. And spoke to me bout some stuff, hahas. AWESOME! Hehes. :) After service went back to our room to rest and change, then went down to eat lunch, then after tat was GAMES! hahas :) The games was fun! The games lyk war lyk tat, interesting! :) sth scary happened! suddenly my feet got centipede =.= i got a shock sia! lols. At the end of the games we all play water bomb, hahas :) fun ! but i nv get really wet :( i wan get wet derh lorh, sianzz =.= then we all went back to salvation army to have a short evalution then we went back to our rooms to have break :) After dinner was service :) service was AWESOME! GOD really move in our midst! :) hahas. service end around 11 plus ba then went back to our rooms to prepare to sleep, hahas :) was tired! i think we all slept at 12plus, 1 lyk tat super late, lols.
DAY 3:
Woke up around 8 ba, super late! lols. we all rush lyk mad, coz we need to prepare for devotion, some more most of them are done, lols >.< after devotion went to makan, breakfast was nice! :) yum yum! :) hahas. After tat was service :) cool :) enjoyed the service, God really bring me back to different things in my life, and tell me different things, :) after service we went to practice the dance steps tat we r going to perform, was ok, then we all went for BGR seminar, was interesting, but the video was abit boring, coz dun understand wat the person toking, lols >.< After tat its time for each zone to perform, super stress! But all of us did our best alr :) hahas, and dinner was nice too :) the different performances was funny and interesting, hahas :) and we all got surprise from the camp com, we all got ice cream! :) hahas :) so nice of them :D hahas. Then we all went back to our rooms to prepare for the finale nite and have to change to our skool uniforms, abit wired, but ok larh, hahas. ushering for finale, was cool :) hahas. After the sermon, pastor say some of us can go up the stage and pray and claim different things, and i went up coz God promp me to go, was quite scared actually but after praying i felt better :) and we all write down different expectation for our campus and when we r ready we will go to our leaders and they will pin the badge on our collar, the badge very nice, hahas. i lyk :) God give me the passion for my campus again, and for ppl too :) AWESOME! really lyk the finale nite, and its lyk very late liao, and we r sleep very late, lols. xD
DAY 4:
Last day of camp :( time flies, and we all woke up late xD lols. then we all do our devotion, then went to service hall to put our bags, then i rush to serve for breakfast, lols. last min then noe tat my group was serving for breakfast, lols. After breakfast was service, hahas :) last service for the camp alr :( super sad! hahas. but although is the last service for the camp God still touch us was super awesome! God really draw me close to him, and i really can feel him so close to me, during the sermon alr can feel God's presence and he is even speaking to me as the pastor speak. After the sermon, the pastor ask derh musicians to sing the song, and it goes lyk tis: Hold on to me sweet Jesus, never let me go, never let me go . although its juz a simple song but it spoke to me alot. was really GOOD! God is holding on to me, and i should not let him go :) hahas. after service we all took alot of photos, hahas. then after tat went to eat subway, near the salvation army thr, then after tat took bus home, actually wanted to go clementi to eat derh lorh then dun noe wat they doing also, then nv go liao. but i really lyk A.D camp, super AWESOME! :D ilove A.D camp! :)

2010-12-13T13:23:00.000+08:00

I'm back from Camp A.D long ago. Juz tat i very tired to update my blog, will update bout camp A.D soon yeah :) hahas. I juz got to say Camp A.D was awesome! i really love Camp A.D and i really miss Camp A.D now! hahas. Its really awesome to be in God's presence! hahas :) we all got touch by him and let Him do a deep work in our hearts and change our hearts, really cool. hehes. And those 4 days was a fruitful one! staying in God's presence, hahas :) After coming back from camp, i'm super tired! will update my blog bout camp A.D soon yeah. Now i'm looking forward to Christmas musical PARADISE! yeahhh! :D hahas.

2010-12-05T21:55:00.001+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO! less than a day to A.D camp <3 SUPER EXCITED! :) looking forward to let God do a deep work in me :) i will go wif a DIFFERENT ATTITUDE ! hahas. I scared i cant sleep ltr at nite :( Hope i can sleep well 2nite ba :) if not 2moro very tired. 2moro meeting the west zone to eat breakfast at mos burger at 9am. Then 10am we need to take bus and head to salvation army. Hahas :) i buying bubble tea and bring to salvation army, hehes >.< i feel lyk not sleeping 2nite leh, ton until morning. lols. camp com gd lorh can ton at church :( i wan ton at church also leh. sianzz. Hahas, i wun be blogging until i'm back on thurs and i will update wat has happened during the camp and upload photos in fb :) i finish packing my bag liao, hehes :) now i very bored larh! nth do facing the comp now! haizz. faster 2moro best! :D hehes. blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah! boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring, boring !

AWAY FROM BLOG UNTIL 9 DEC FOR A.D CAMP :D

2010-12-04T21:55:00.000+08:00

heyyo ppl! :) 2day's pre camp service was fun! I enjoyed myself, same group wif most of the ppl i noe. but adel very sad, coz she not same group wif Janice. Adel, dun worry yeah, evrything will be fine, dun sad lerh, cheer up yeah :) 2 more days to A.D camp! woooooohoooooooo! :) Westly say sth very rite, we have to go wif a different attitude coz is absolutely different camp, God give me a different attitude for tis camp so tat i can receive sth tat is much more than i can even think or imagine! :) i wan to be absolutely different ! God only u can do tat work in me :) hahaa. i'm very excited to wat God is going to do in my life, and during the camp of course <3 hehes ! :) i not yet pack my stuff sia, lazy pack also >.< lols. hope tat i can pack finish 2moro if not i mati liao :( hahas. shall end here, byes :D

2010-12-03T12:18:00.003+08:00

THE BLOCKBUSTER MUSICAL COMEDY OF THE YEAR.

PARADISE! Resorts World.

Hey! Christmas is juz 22days away! :D I'm lyk super excited! hehes. Dun miss tis christmas musical yeah! Its on the 25th dec 7.00pm ( sat ) and 26th dec 2.30 ( sun ) Free admission! at aljunied! :) More details will be updated again. hahas. I'm going to invite my friends! i dun wan them to miss tis musical :) i think they will lyk tis musical, hahas. 2day nv work again! sianzz =.= i dun noe if i got enough money to buy all my present and stuff anot?! haizz. Ltr going out wif hanyi! <3 hahas. i'm going to invite her for christmas! :D hope she woud wan to go. really wan her to go. I'm really looking forward to christmas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahas !

I JUST WANT YOU

More than a nice melody,

More than the sweetest of words,

This is the love i have found,

And with this love i am found.

CHORUS:

I just want you, Jesus

I just want you, my Lord

I just want you, Jesus

I just want you.

Never could i comprehend,

The love you so freely give,

Never could i be with you,

But your love covers all of my sin.

( repeat chorus )

There is no greater love than yours,

Nothing else could ever compare,

And even if i search all the world,

I will never find a love like yours ( GOD ).

( repeat chorus)

I JUST WANT YOU GOD!

2010-12-02T15:23:00.010+08:00

The River

It doesn't matter who you are

It doesn't matter where you've been

It doesn't matter what the scar

It doesn't matter what the sin

It doesn't matter how you fell

Somewhere along the way

There's healing for your life today

CHORUS:

There's a river that flows

From the fountain of God

And it heals everything along the way

I have tasted and known

That for every broken heart

There is healing in Jesus' name

He looks beyond how far you've gone

He looks beyond how you were hurt

He looks beyond who stole your song

He looks beyond what made it worse

He looks beyond where others failed

To reach out to you and say

There's healing for your life today

CHORUS:

There's a river that flows

From the fountain of God

And it heals everything along the way

I have tasted and known

That for every broken heart

There is healing in Jesus' name

It's a river of love

It's a river that lives

It's the River of Life

Living water it gives

CHORUS:

There's a river that flows

From the fountain of God

And it heals everything along the way

I have tasted and known

That for every broken heart

There is healing in Jesus'

This song is super nice! I love this song! <3 God will always heals every pain, when we fall. He will never leave us alone he will always heal us, and he heals every broken heart. It doesn't matter hu we r, or wat sin we have, he will still heal us and forgive us. Isn't God gd?! hahas :) He is always gd! I really wan to thx God for bringing me thru different difficult situation tat i have face and He nv fails to be thr to comfort and heal my every pain tat i have. Whenever i fall down He will pick me up and encourage me to go on again. God i really love u man, u r really gd to me! when ppl fails me but u will nv fails me. U r always faithful. God, can u tell me some things tat i wan to noe? I really wan a ans from u, pls tell me wat's ur will for my question. And yesterday christina's wallet lost was very worried but in the end thr's a indian man hu found her wallet, really thx God! coz i tot maybe ppl have taken her wallet alr but it was a miracle! :D cool. Awesome! :) I'm seriously seriously looking forward to youth camp! 4 more days! yeahhhhhhhhhhh! I have lyk 10 expectations! WOWWWW! hahas. God i will believe in u tat u will make all my expectations come to past! I'm going to have faith in u no matter how long i have to wait. :D Lots of thing to look forward to during the camp. <3 hehehehehehehehes ! :)

2010-12-01T14:50:00.002+08:00

Time really flies man! 5 more days to youth camp! I'm soooooooooooooo looking forward to it! :) hahas :D How i wish now is 6 dec, hehes <3 I'm worried tat i dun have enough money for christmas presents, birthday presents, and christmas shopping for myself! :( I juz got to trust God tat he will provide yah. hahas :) This sat going out wif aveline in the morning to buy my black long sleeve shirt for usher during christmas. Hahas. Looking forward to christmas too :D

Here r God's characteristic, i juz type out to encourage myself :)

God is Awesome ( Exodus 34:10, Deuteronomy 7:21, 10:17, 10:21 )

God is the Beginning ( Genesis 1:1, Deuteronomy 11:12 )

God is Caring ( Psalm 55:22, 1 peter 5:7 )

God is my Deliverer ( 2 samuel 22:2, Nehemiah 9:27, Psalm 18:2, 40:17, 140:7, 144:2 )

God is Everlasting ( Nehemiah 9:5, Psalm 90:2, 103:17 )

God is Faithful ( deuteronomy 7:9, 32:4 )

God is Great ( Exodus 18:11, 7:21, deuteronomy 4:7 )

God is Holy ( 1 peter 1:15-16 )

God is Immortal ( 1 timothy 1:17 )

God is Just ( 1 john 1:9, revelation 15:3 )

God is King ( 1 timothy 6:15 )

God is Love ( psalm 66:20, 63:3 )

God is Majestic ( exodus 15:11, psalm 8:1 )

God is Never-failing ( Lam 3:22 )

God is Omega ( revelation 1:8 )

God is my Provider ( matthew 14:13-21 )

God is Refuge ( deuteronomy 33:7 )

God is my Security ( Jeremiah 33:6 )

God is Trustworthy ( 2 samuel 7:28 )

God is Worthy ( 1 chronicles 16:25 )

" I can do all things thru christ who gives me strength. "

- philippians 4:13

2010-11-30T14:37:00.001+08:00

STICKY! <3

Those pics on the top is last thurs i took derh, wif Hanyi! hahas. Actually we r suppose to go for interview wif Hanjun, but when we write our particulars and stuff alr, then they say we under age =.= sianzz! nvm then Hanjun buy us Sticky! but not all is he buy derh larh, he buy 2 then the rest is me and hanyi buy derh, but i only buy 1 packet, hehes. Then we went to cityvibe to ask for jobs, but not very suceessful. haizz. coz most of the jobs need 16 and above! But in the end we got a job, not from cityvibe but from the web, thx to hanyi! <3 hahas. but the job was to give some vouchers on the street at crchard, yesterday was our first day of job, when we reach orchard we went to find the map at the mrt station coz we dun noe how to go orchard hotel, but in the end we still cannot find our way out then we go to the information counter to gewt a map to guide us, lols, we both walk until lyk very funny lorh, as we walk we keep laughing, hahas. but thx God we found the place! :) hahas. the job was quite ok for me but juz have to overcome my fear to give the vouchers, but i did it! actually was quite pai seh to give but when i start giving the first one i find it was ok, so i juz keep on giving and tell myself tat i dun need to be afraid, but some ppl nv take but its ok, some ppl give those hack care look, but i did not really care i juz smiled, lols. stupid me. coz i also dun noe how to react, after tat rain heavily! me and hanyi dun have umbrella then we went to daiso at Ion to buy umbrella, coz hanyi say her transparent umbrella lost then i buy a white one. hahas! :) after we got our pay we went to chinatown for our interview at a CD shop, but we have to wait for thier call, hopefully can get the job ba, lols. Thurs going to work again the give voucher thingy, hahas. i need to get enough money asap b4 christmas! got lots of things to buy! :) shall end here, Byes! :D

2010-11-24T20:47:00.000+08:00

Back to blog :D past 2days having band, was lyk crazy, practice many hours! coz next year SYF, so need lots of practice. This sat got open hse, going back skool in the morning then around 12 leaving, going to church! :) got pre camp service! :D yeah! looking forward to it also! Its going to be fun i guess, hehes :) looking forward more for youth camp! how i wish now will be lyk 6 dec! :D oh man! i not yet buy my black long sleeve shirt for ursher derh, need to get it by 5 dec leh, dun noe can get it on time anot, hope so ba. Going interview 2moro wif hanyi :D pray tat i will be able to get the job, i really need money! to pay for my youth camp, to buy my black long sleeve shirt, buy christmas gift, going out wif PANDA! and Jiaxuan to go eat sakae most probably, christmas shopping to buy my stuff, birthday presents for PANDA! nelson and hanyi. All this things need money! so i need to get this job! God i pray tat me and hanyi can get this job! Help me God! i am abit scared of 2moro's interview, also dun noe y? haizz. hope everything will be fine.

2010-11-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

2nd time blogging in a day! lols. Juz finish watching How great is our God tour, its amazing man! After watching i'm lyk speechless, God is really great man! <3 it goes beyound wat we can even think or imagine! WOW WOW WOW! the only word i can say is WOW! and laminin is one of the cell in our body tat hold our organ and body together, and it forms a cross! its super amazing man! and here r pictures of laminin:

yeah! God really assured me tat he's great, and its really beyond wat i can even imagine or think! its so cool! our DNA carries 3 billions of characteristics tat God wants us to be! it really blew my mind man! we r really fearfully and wonderfully made by GOD! God is really really really AWESOME! God is bigger than anything else! he created the heaven and the earth and made us from dust! awesome isn't it! :D cool!

2010-11-20T11:34:00.007+08:00

Nowadays very lazy to blog, also dun noe y, i think coz very tired ba, lols. This week was busy wif alot of things also. hahas. Thx God tat i found a job but not yet go interview, this coming thurs going takashimaya to interview wif hanyi, kevin, wengho, and maybe kaibin, lols. I really need money man! not yet settle my youth camp payment! going to die liao. hope tat b4 youth ccamp i can settle the money issue, i quite worried tat i cant get until enough money on time for payment. lols. Nvm, HAVE FAITH! GOD WILL PROVIDE! Hahas :D I'm so excited wif different events tat is coming up on dec, hahas, lyk youth camp, christmas musical PARADISE! christmas shopping after youth camp >.< BFF outing i guess, still confirming in progress.. and last but no least thx giving service too. YEAH! so many things to look forward to! hahas. will have a busy dec holidays man! hahas :D SUPERRRRRRR EXCITED! FASTER DEC LARHHHHH! >.< heheehehehehehehehes. :) <3

Yesterday was juz spending time wif God and i juz felt tat i need to rise up, come out of my comfort zone and breakthru, i cant have anymore hesitation** i think God is telling me tat too :D

2010-11-13T09:38:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging! :D This 2 weeks was busy wif skool and CCA, tired man! =.= everyday need wake up sooooooooo early! Although after this week dun have extra lesson anymore but got CCA coz next year got SYF, haizz. Got to work exrtra hard. Lols. Yesterday went hospital wif my mother to take her blood test, hope tat everything will be fine ba, i will keep her in prayer :D nth much to post lerh, byes. :)

2010-10-27T20:49:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY PANDA! JASON SIM! :D

PANDA! Happy birthday! :D Thx for being such a great BFF to me :) Really thx God for u, hahas. Thx for bringing lots of

joy. U have been very cheerful :) continue to stay cheerful. I still thinking wat present to buy for u, hahas. I think we can exchange present during the BFF outing, hahas. Will write more in the card yeah, hahas. God Bless! TC.

2010-10-21T20:04:00.000+08:00

Juz now ask my mother if i can go youth camp, she dun wna let me go, every year lyk tat derh. then she will say coz very ex =.= i tell her i will pay myself alr, then she still say cannot. I REALLY WAN GO YOUTH CAMP LARH! :( Nvm i'm going to pray bout it, and i going to have faith in GOD! I'm going to believe tat He's going to provide! coz nth is impossible for Him! :) God help me!

2010-10-11T21:11:00.000+08:00

Back to blogging :) lyk finally! exams r over! yeah! :D i'm free from exams! hahahs :) Last week was a busy and stress week for me due to exams, study lyk siao sia. But now can slack lyk siao alr :) hehes :) But i still wish those hu r still having exams gd luck and all the best :) Jiayous ba.

2010-10-08T22:03:00.001+08:00

♥;Although alot of things we dun wan it to happen, but it happened, so we have no choice but to accept the fact, even how much we dun lyk it.

Thr is alot of things i dun wan it happen but it happened but i have to learn to accept it, no matter how much i hate the thing also no point coz it has alr happened. :( Alot of ppl also have to go thru things tat they dun feel lyk going thru, life is juz full of thunderstorm, after a storm is over thr will always be another one, no one's life is always full of rainbows thr will be thunderstorm at times. Juz hope tat i can get over it soon, and exams is going to be over! :) looking forward to it :) jiayous ba :) Gd luck to ppl hu r still having exams :) all the best :)

2010-08-29T20:21:00.000+08:00

♥; i'm tired alr.

My mother sick lerh, juz now pei her go see doctor, she having slight fever, cough and sore throat. then now i having cough, sianzz. hope i wun fall sick, and i hope tat my mother will get well soon also. think i will end here, nth much to say. byes.

2010-08-23T21:05:00.000+08:00

♥; i'm still loving u no matter wat.

Happy birthday to my dearest jie; melissa! <3
Jie! happy birthday, jiayous in everything u r doing ok? hahas :) thx for the many times u encouraged me and toking to me :D really miss those times when we have a heart to heart tok :) hahas. hope tat we can have it again soon yeah :) thx for being such a great sis to me, love u lots <3 I'm really blessed to have u :D

One word i can describe 2day is CUI! i really dun noe y all these things i dun wan them to happened it all happened, all along i was worried tat tis thing will happened and it really happened, =.= i really have enough of all these things, its lyk whole of my life i'm always surrounded wif all these things! i seriously hate all these things! AND I HATE MY LIFE NOW!

2010-08-20T21:11:00.001+08:00

♥; i'm very tired, i really need a break.

past few days very sad of sth feel very heart pain, haizz, cant really fall asleep at nite. :(
I hope i can sth more, but i cant. i dun noe wat to do. Aiya dun tok bout it alr, feel lyk
crying when i tok bout it. Today, rain the whole day, went to hanyi hse and meet her
in the morning, walk in the rain, lols, sort of wake me up, and feel very refresh. 2day's
lesson was quite ok, but after skool got band, very tired, quite angry wif mr pek, always
release us late =.= nv release us early b4, he very purposely sia, irritating! Very happy
tat he 2day got go cca :) hahas. Miracle tat he go cca leh, lols. i feel very pai seh sia,
coz juz now at level 1 derh classroom having sectionals, while i was trying to play
derh high note for my instrument, is my band instructor ask me play derh =.=
then out of tune sia, damn nan ting larh derh sound, then gang hao he walk pass
then i saw him, he lyk fake fake cover his ear, but when i look at him he turn behind
and look at me also, lols. then he still lyk smile smile, lols, then Joleen tell me he and
wengho walk pass, wahhh.. super pai seh larh! >.< Blame derh instructor larh,
ask me play wat high not then out of tune, Zzz.. lols.

everytime i tell myself i dun love u lerh actually i'm trying to lie to myself, i still cant let u go.
I still cant forget you! I still love you, JUNSHEN ♥ i tried very hard to forget u , but i cant.
I cant deny to myself. anymore, i'm juz trying to run from the fact only,but the feelings is thr.

2010-08-16T21:09:00.000+08:00

♥; tired, today! excited for 2moro! <3

TO: JUNSHEN! <3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Must jiayous in ur studies ok? Although we lyk nv really tok but i still treat u as my friend yeah :) i hope tat we can tok more yah, hehes xD Anw thx for everything :) and u must learn how to take care of urself yeah, stubborn boyy >.< hahas. If i got one wish to make, i will wish tat u can promote to sec 4 next year, actually i'm worried for u. All tat i wan is u to do well in ur EYE and promote to sec 4. i really dun wan u to retain. Hope tat u can wake up and start studying and work hard for EYE. JIAYOUS BA. takecares <3

2010-08-14T21:43:00.000+08:00

♥; i'm very worried larh! hope tat u r fine.

Past few days alot things happening so nv post, some more very tired. Last thur have our IC registration, books of records, any the Jouney of the Youth Olympic Flame. The IC can only us my sec 1 photo =.= haizz, waste my money taking photo, aiya nvm larh. After skool got books of record and JYOG, then the sec1s to 3s went to the field for the books of record, the weather is super hot larh, lols. then still need dance under the hot sun =.= but we created a new record. lols. then after tat we went outside skool to watch the YOG flame, the torch very nice sia, hahas. then after tat home sweet home :)
Heard tat he is sick, hope tat he will go see doctor ba, and hope he will get well soon also :) coz i'm very worried.. :(

2010-08-08T20:50:00.001+08:00

♥; the sad feelings are coming back again, i feel lyk crying but i cant cry.

6Aug10

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY BOYYFRIEND! SIEWLI! <3

hey boyyfriend! happy belated birthday! hope u have enjoyed urself on ur birthday :)
thx for being such a great sister to me :) cheering me up at different point of times :D
hahas, noe u for 8 year plus lerh, wow very long sia, hahas :) i will cherish our sister-ship
got to owe u ur present yeah, srys, anw thx for everything u have done for me! I LOVE U LOTS! <3

entrepreneurship fair was quite cui, and tiring, especially derh ice-cream, super cui man!
all the ice-cream melted, lols. become melted cream liao >.< i think we will lose money
haizz, anw we all put in our best alr, so got to wait for miss lim to tell us how much we earn.
Anw tis year wan not very gd, lols. I wan to thx Boon khim, my kor weyhau, aveline for buying from my class, love u guys <3 hahas. And i will nv forget tis day 060210, a spacial day for me <3.

8Aug10

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISAAC! :D

Happy birthday Isaac! hahas, glad to noe u, allthough we noe each other not very long
but i hope to noe u more, hahas :) thx for being so cheerful most of the times, really
encourages me :D continue to stay cheerful yeah :) hope u will enjoy tis day, and have
a blessed birthday, all the best in everything u r doing alrite :D

2010-08-03T20:40:00.000+08:00

♥; Let natural take its course! Tat's wat i have to learn, i will continue to wait.

2day ended common test! WOOHOO! :D Finally can take a break after all the studying! xD
hahas, juz now went to imm wif hanyi and vanessa to buy sth, lols. So fast another 3 more
day will be 6Aug, hahas. And its also my gan Boyyfriend, siewli derh birthday, hahas, time
flies, hehes. she's 15 alr :) about another 1 more month i will turn 15. lols. Now i very bored!
nth to do, haizz, super sianzz.. nth else to post lerh, byes :D

2010-07-26T20:19:00.000+08:00

♥; life is getting more and more boring! Its always the same everyday.

2day rain the whole day again, sianzz. Meet hanyi and willie at market, then went skool. Feel very sleepy, coz of the rain. lols. Got no band 2day! WOOHOO! :D shiock man! Lyk FINALLY! hahas. Wed is common test lerh, need to chiong to study alr, dun wan to fail common test, also wan to encourage others to study also yeah! hahas :) After skool having headache =.= until now sia.. But thx to mummy! <3 she help me rub my head, now feeling much better lerh :) i think ltr need go eat panadol lerh, still having headache =.= juz now slack wif hanyi and kevin at market, but kevin all the way was reading the book, lols. then me and hanyi tok tok :D then around 4plus go home lerh. Anw gtg lerh, need to go study social studies now, Wed got SS test, very worried for my common test :( Btw gd luck to everyone for common test :D Jiayous :) Byes :D

Love is every whr but u juz have to wait for the rite time to come,
patient is juz u got to have, and one day ur true love will come,
no point having relationship now tat wun last, concentrate on wat
u have now, and the rest will come naturally, let natural take its
course, and i got to learn to wait for the rite time. Perservere!

2010-07-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

♥; i juz realised tat i still cannot let u go, i still love u, and i always lie to myself tat i dun love u anymore but actually i still love u.

2day very irritated by some ppl, =.= really spoil my mood sia seriously. IRRITATED! aiya forget it, dun say anymore, the more i will be angry, juz now rain derh whole day, lols. now got flu =.= sianzz.. haizz.. now nth to do very bored sia, now on fb, hahas.

i love him! <3 AND i miss him alot!

2010-07-20T21:07:00.001+08:00

♥; A sad thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go.

2day woke up late again, lols. Was suppose to meet Hanyi,
at her hse, srys Hanyi. In the end meet her and willie at
cc bus stop, and 2day was Racial Harmony Day, quite
slacking, lols. and after recess i have flu AGAIN! until
now =.= sianzz. but thx someone for the concern and asking
me to take care of myself :) Btw common test coing soon,
got to chiong to study lerh, jiayous ba! quite afraid tat
i will not do well for common test, haizz. but no matter
wat i still have to study :) He 2day nv go skool =.= dun noe
y kind of miss him, lols. i think he will go skool 2moro ba :D
imy lots! <3 5867436

2010-07-17T11:31:00.000+08:00

♥; The feelings come back again, when i started to tok to u..

Yesterday was waiting for ur msg, but u nv reply,
whenever the phone buzzed, i tot it was u but it was
not, was disappointed when i did not receive ur msg,
i dun noe if i said sth wrong so u nv reply me, and
i'm scared tat if i have made u angry with wat i said
in the msg, i was juz jk only, i hope tat u r not angry.
i'm really srys, hope tat on mon when i go back to
skool, u will not be angry ba, i was thinking of all
the reasons y u nv reply my msg, but i really dun
noe, cant sleep yesterday nite, was worried tat u
might be angry wif me, and i dun dare to msg u
coz i scared, hope tat everything will be fine on mon :)

2010-07-15T21:46:00.001+08:00

♥; Super Duper HAPPY! :)

My feelings is juz lyk tis rainbow, very nice :)
Tis week i'm super HAPPYYYYYYYYYYY! Because thr
is sth tat i nv expected it to happen, although
i hope for it to happen very long alr, i finally
tok to him lerh! :D Tis was the thing i hope for
so long :) and i took up the courage to msg and
tok to him, although abit wired but tok long lerh
then will xi guan derh larh, hahas :) Hope tat we
can tok lyk normally and more often. :D and i will
find things to tok to him also derh :) I can't believe
tat i lend pencil from him, is lyk so crazy of me to do
tat larh! lols, but he lend me leh, hahas. Really stupid
of me man! >.<

Yesterday was super pissed of wif someone! He think he
hu sia?! HE DUN EVEN HAVE THE RITE TO JUDGE ME LARH!
I seriously hate it when he judge ppl when he dun
even have the rite to do so! Seriously u r nth better
dun act lyk u very big larh horr! u better watch wat
u say, if the next time u let me hear u saying me again
i will give u a miserable life, u dare u try lorh! ur
mouth so BIG and FAT, no wonder tok bout ppl behind
their back, pls larh, u think i dun noe u toking
bout me meh, i juz give u face only, next time? NO WAY!
u wait long long ahh, i will not give u face anymore!
i will comfirm say u back derh, dun think i dumb
or wat larh horr! seriously, let me warn u first
u better watch out! I HATE U TO THE MAX!!!

2010-07-06T21:09:00.001+08:00

♥; I dun noe y whenever i see u, i got a wired feeling, maybe coz pai seh bah.

2nd week of skool lerh, very tired man! All the teachers have to prepare us for common test, is lyk so fast larh, thr is no more time to waste lerh, need to chiong for common test, its time to work hard lerh! jiayous :) haizz, time flies sia, soon will be end year lerh, scary scary! sway sia me and minqi kanna the YOG learning journey, haizz, 2-6.30 pm leh, very lazy go leh, dun noe wan go anot, haizz :( some more is on wed, dun even noe if got tutorial anot, lols. how leh??? see how bah, i now very TIRED TIRED TIRED! :(

TO Someone:

Hope u can cheer up yeah:)
dun give up :D
i will support u derh,
hahas :) dun sad anymore.
continue to jiayous,
thr will be alot of
opportunities derh:)
SMILE yeah! :D

2010-07-01T20:36:00.000+08:00

♥; you does not matter to me anymore lerh, i have enough of all tis things alr, i shall put it to a stop.

Family nite :D

Gabriel's b'day celebration :D

Birthday boyy! :D

Last day of the camp :(

At Boon Siong's hse :D

church camp was fun! hahas, really enjoyed myself during the 5 days in malacca, lols. was very excited for the camp and looking forward to it. lazy to type bout wat happened >.< lols. hahas, but overall i really enjoyed my first trip to church camp :) hahas :D Any way skkol re-open lerh, was quite tiring tis week, also dun noe y, lols. nth much to say bout skool stuff, lols. think i will end here ba, very tired to type xD Byes! :)

2010-06-13T21:43:00.000+08:00

♥; I hope tat one day i dun have to dwell in all the hurts anymore, and maybe to 4get the past and move on.

Yesterday when i was sleeping, and i have a sweet dream, lols, and the thing i dream bout is sth i always wanted to see it happened, but it happened in the dream, lols. If the dream is real one then gd lo, but its not :( haizz. dream until tat i and him become friends and we tok until very happy tat kind, :D it was a nice dream and we was toking happily and suddenly my alarm clock ring =.= ARGH! i was having a sweet dream and my alarm ring at the wrong timing, Zzzz! haizz, wasted! rarely will have tis kind of dream sia! walao!!! :( SADDED! aiya nvm larh, at least i have dream of tis once in my life time, lols! Juz now went to cityvibe wif mummy to change ringgit, but the shop close liao =.= walao, then went to another side to find then also close, wah.. super frustrated! then my mother blame me for not doing it ealier, then i tell her is she ask me to do it on sunday derh then now blame me, was lyk super angry wif my mother larh! but now ok lerh ba, 2moro leaving singapore lerh, miss my mother leh, i feel so bad lyk pang seh her in singapore, lols. actually she dun wan to let me go the camp derh, but in the end she let, but sometimes she will still nag abit, dun think i can sleep 2nite, hahas, kind of miss my hse and everyone tat is in singapore, lols. :( 2moro waking up at 8, then have to meet the rest at clementi at 9, the timing still ok :) hahas, finally pack finish my stuff lerh :D 2moro juz have to double check tat i got bring all my things. :D think i'll end my post here, shall update my blog when i came back from camp :D byes! :)

2010-06-11T21:49:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY KOR: ♥ CHOONG WEY HAU!

Today is my kor's birthday, i'm here to wish him a happy birthday! :D

i wan to thx him for being a wonderful kor to me, and he is the best

kor ever xD Hahas, i hope tat he will do well in his coming mid-year exam

and for his 'O' level, wish him all the best for his exams, and hope tat

he will study hard, hahas :) gd luck to him, and i have to owe him his present xD skool re-open then give him, but i dun noe wat to buy for him leh, very hard to get present for him :P lols hahas. Anw i sure will get him one derh. hehes :D lastly wish my kor can last long wif his stead :D

2day woke up 7plus bcoz got maths tutorial, and 2day is the last tutorial alr :D hahas, finally got a break alr, lols. 2day mr raja came late to class and he end late also =.= haizz, after tat went to market find my mother and so called pei minqi wait for hanjun and haoze at market bus stop, then when bus came then went home derh, was rushing coz after tat need to meet aveline at mos burger, in the end i was late, lols, tok wif her untill 3plus then went home lerh, bored at home, then watch cd until my mother come back, watch until 5.30 then watch little nyonya until 6.30 then my grandma come then went to have dinner, then after dinner went to pack my camp stuff for mon, going to malacca until fri then come back, hahas, quite excited for the camp :D but i still not yet pack finish my stuff leh, i scared i will miss out some things, then mati liao, lols. shall continue packing 2moro. shall end my post here, byes :D

2010-06-09T20:44:00.003+08:00

♥; " seriously no point carry on lyk tis, although its difficult to let go but i have to try, and no point crying over spilled milk. Have to learn to let go. "

TIRED! TIRED! TIRED!
yesterday and today have maths tutorial =.=
sianzz.. tiring sia, some more is lyk 3 hours,
haizz.. then fri having again, another 3 hours.
woke up around 7.30 in the morning, then
meet Minqi at bus inter at 8.30 then me
Una and shazwina went to sheng siong and
buy drinks then went for tutorial, Mr raja
was not very happy, coz second time late
for tutorial alr, lols. If fri late again comfirm
kanna scolding derh, hahas :D After tutorial
went to market and meet hanyi, then we at market
makan then went to jp and buy things, after tat then
minqi, joleen and hanjun follow, lols. Then around 4
lyk tat went to take mrt to go home. Very sianzz sia
having flu now =.= haizz.. 2moro will be fine ba, lols..

i'm tired of everything,
i'm tired of thinking bout the past,
i'm tired of crying over the past things,
i'm tired of seeing all these things happening,
i'm tired of thinking bout you and started to cry,
i'm tired of living in hurts in my heart,
i'm tired of thinking ways to let us be friends again,
i'm tired of the way i'm living now.

I'm serious very tired bout tis thing,
i really hope tat i can forget bout everything,
i juz realise tat i'm getting very tired of loving you,
whenever i see we lyk nv tok to each other and treating
each other lyk strangers, i juz get very irritated, and dun noe
wat to do, a few times i juz feel lyk toking to u but i dun have
the courage to open my mouth and tok, and i will always stay at one
side and look at u, it's lyk so hurting larh, when we dun even tok
and treating each other lyk strangers and avoiding each other,
i dun noe if last time u r juz making use of me to fill up ur emptyness,
i juz feel tat way, and from the things tat is happening now i think tat u r.
but i will not blame u, coz is i stupid wan let u make use of me derh, so i have
nth to say, coz is i willing to let u make use of me derh. I'm juz saying wat i
feel only it may not be true. But i'm juz seriously hurt by all these things,
I'M REALLY TIRED!

2010-06-05T20:22:00.001+08:00

♥; yUnHaN SAYS: " Izzit really tat hard to become friends again? I really wan to be friends lyk last time wif u again, can we? It juz breaks my heart when i see we become lyk tat :( "

on last sat, at sentosa:

Last sat went to sentosa, went thr and played amazing race, and the weather was lyk SUPER HOT! =.= cant stand the weather, lols. but after finish playing, we sit down and rest, and i was enjoying the wind, :) shiok man! very windy :D hahas. But overall i enjoyed myself.

Mon to wed was sec 3 camp, dun wan to go at first but after going dun feel lyk leaving actually, lols. The camp was FUN! :D but nv get to play flying fox, abit disappointed :( but i sort of overcame my fears in playing the heigh eliments, :) Hahas. was a gd experience, nv sleep well during the camp coz was very noisy as thr will be aeroplane flying pass every 5 mins =.= haizz, sort of miss the camp, and the instructors too! the instructors was very funny and friendly, they make us very alive and make tis camp very fun, :D thx to them tat i have a wonderful camp, although alot of thing we nv get to play, but i really enjoyed myself wif the presence of the instructors :)

yesterday went to work wif siewli, was very tiring :( went to give flyers, door to door, tiring leh, lols. Took bus down to holland then went to meet the ppl to collect our flyers, we do bout 7 blocks lyk tat, then around 5plus then finish giving, then took bus back to clementi then we went to cityvibe and buy bubble tea and walk walk awhile then headed home alr, super tired sia! now my hands and legs are having aches. :( was a tiring day for me.

2010-05-25T20:40:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " SADDED! :( "

yesterday nite was very terrible! having stomach pain, is lyk worst than normal derh pain, and feel lyk vomiting, woke up at around 12 mid-nite and vomited, cannot even sleep well yesterday, then now very tired. But luckily when i wake up tis morning feeling much better alr :) but my stomach still abit pain. Then 2day have guitar :D cool man, we first learn the basics then we start playing songs , and we played quite a number of songs, play until my thumb got blister :( but overall very fun :) 2moro still have. Then 2moro after skool going to find job wif siewli :D to work during the holidays, so dun need to stay at home lerh, hahas, coz i dun lyk staying at home. Thurs got PTI my mother going to skool to meet wif Miss Lim, haizz, fail 3 subj i think. So my mother need go meet her, haizz. Hope have no complains ba, if not... ... i think should be alright ba.

2010-05-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I cant tok to u, it's not tat i am mad at u, it's juz tat when i tok to u i realize how much i love u, and when i realize how much i love u, i realize i cant have u and tat makes me love u even more. "

2day have entreprenuership workshop, lucky dun have suspension, Mr Pek juz came to ask me y nv go band, then i juz tell him i got gastris pain then he say have to produce a letter for him, then i say ok, lols. then after tat went back to class to check our long mark sheet then at 9am then go for the workshop, during the workshop, we was playing and toking wif one another, hahas, enjoyed ourselves. Then after workshop went back to class, also no teacher for lyk one period, then last period Miss Lim came in and tok bout class tee the thing, i feel very mafan sia, everyone got different opinion then very hard to choose sia, haizz, i want polo tee, but majority wanted dry fit. =.= After skool went for band, me and Joleen went to band late coz go find teacher then go eat lunch, then Mr Pek nag at us, haizz. then after tat carry on wif the usual stuff, have sectionals, was fun, was toking to Joleen bout sec 3 camp, hahas. :) we tok for very long, then pack up, take bus wif Joleen then she say want go clementi slack for awhile, then pei her, lols. After tat went home, was having gastric pain =.= AGAIN! but now ok liao :D looking forward to 2moro :) learning guitar. Excited! :D

2010-05-23T20:32:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " It's very easy to fall in love wif someone, but when u r deeply in love wif someone is very difficult to let go of tat person. "

Having a flu now, sianzz =.= from very young tat time jiu have flu alr, and i have a very sensitive nose, abit of dust or change in weather will have flu, haizz.. dun lyk having flu, very xing ku sia, keep sneezing. Haizz also bo bian hu ask me to born having a sensitive nose, lols. Hope tat 2moro will be ok ba.. i think also coz now a days the weather also not gd so now having a flu. :(

2010-05-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " It breaks ur heart when someone u noe become someone u knew, when u can walk right pass someone as if they were never a huge part of ur life, u use to be able to msg all day long & now u cant even look at each other in the damn eye & it breaks ur heart to noe good things have change & thr is nth tat u can do. "

Juz now heard from Joleen tat we tio suspension coz nv go band, she say wat mr pek say if in skool then nv go band consider as pon, also dun noe when have to serve our suspension, hope is not next week coz got entrepreneurship workshop, dun wan miss it sia, hope tat is lyk when skool re-open then serve, dun noe leh. Haizz, fan sia, irritating. Y must life be lyk tat? make ppl got so many things to fan, if nth to fan more better lorh. Can do wat u wan also can,:( SIANZZ! Get sick and tired of all the things tat i have to fan, and everything tat is still bothering me! I juz feel very useless tat i cant do anything, how i wish those things doesnt even exist, but i noe i have to face the fact and not run away when things get difficult, its juz very coward of me by doing tat, but i really dun noe wat to do, i'm very confused! :( thinking bout the thing tat has happened juz make me feel more sad, but i juz cant help it to stop thinking bout it. It will juz suddenly come into my mind, i'm juz simply getting very tired of it. :(

2010-05-20T21:27:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " True love is when u shed a tear and still wan him, it's when he ignores u and still loves him, it's when he loves another but u still smile and be happy for him, when all u really do is cry and cry. "

2day was a long day for me, after skool got entrepreneurship workshop. SUPER TIRED! Lols, juz now got back my mid-year papers, failed english paper 2, chem juz pass by 2 marks, Social studies and geo juz past, lols. Was very scared to take my results, coz i scared i will fail, but turn out not too bad actually, hahas :D Juz now after skool went plaza wif Hanyi they all to makan, then went back to skool for the workshop, was late lyk 15 mins but when we reach the music room, the workshop also not yet start, lols. Actually the workshop was quite fun, have music to listen and air-con to blow, hahas :D we was toking among ourselves when the instructor was toking, XD after tat got 25 mins break, went to sheng siong to buy snacks to eat, then we was lyk eating inside the music room larh, lols. when we was having group discussion tat time we play until nth play go play wif marker, then i give Hanyi the marker and tell her go draw on Weng ho, lols then he go take another marker to draw us back, he go draw alot on Hanyi lorh, too much sia, after the workshop we went to the toilet to wash up, then inside the toilet got one bottle then we go fil it up wif water, we wanted to pour on Weng ho then he run until so fast, lols. funny sia, then when outside skool he let us pour on him, then stop for awhile then Hanyi go pour on him again then he go take scott derh water bottle and spray at Hanyi, some more is spray alot sia, so bad sia,we was lyk laughing, then we walk to market and take bus home, then my bus came and then went home lerh, then left them at the bus stop, srys pang seh ur, hahas :D 2day was a fun and tired day, (: 2moro lesson as usual, sianzz, some more got cca, haizz. LAZY GO FOR CCA SIA! :(

2010-05-19T20:08:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " some say holding on is wat makes u strong, but sometimes it takes much more strength to just let go and move on. "

Yesterday went Jp wif mummy, went thr to walk walk and buy my netbook. Then go makan, shop around, bout 4 lyk tat went home, sianzz.. do my netbook stuff.. watch tv, was quite bored for me yesterday. Lols. Today went back to skool lerh, actually quite lazy to go skool 2day, hahas. 2day got back some of the exam's result, was quite happy actually. But i also hope tat my other friends will. be able to get gd results for mid-year and gd luck for 2moro in getting back the rest of the papers, :D i'm sure they all can do it derh, :) hahas. I feel very tired now, update 2moro again. byes.

2010-05-18T17:34:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Have u ever wanted to tok to the person, but never really dared? or missed the opportunity to tell the person u really cared? Pretended that it doesn't hurt and said that it's ok? And spend each day wishing it'd all just go away? Acted how you're ' supposed to ' so he will never know u cried? And never let him see how u felt inside? "

Back to blog again, hahas. finally got a new netbook! my blog is lyk really dead larh, nv even update it, lols. actually alot of things are going on, makes me very tired sia, not juz only exams, and finally exam is over! shiok man! can play all i wan alr, but i scared of my results sia, hope everything can pass ba. Think i shall update my blog agian, got no time now, gtg! BYES :D

2010-04-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: BORING! SIANZZ!

so long nv blog alr.. coz comp spoil, :( dun noe can get new comp anot.. haizz, hope so ba.. past few months lots of things happened makes me moodless and very sad.. haizz.. :( I do sth tat i regretted, so dun leave ur life wif regret.. its a terrible feeling.. Juz very sad, and misses someone.. haizz :( but thr is nth i can do also, juz have to let natural take its course lorh.. and its a very painful process to go thru.. and i have to go thru it all alone.. hate to go thru tis, but i still have to.. hope tat time can heal everything ba.. think i'll end here.. byes

2010-02-05T17:19:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " HATE STAYING AT HOME! "

No skool 2day as it was KR hands on day, quite relax and slacking, hahas. For our level we got to stay in skool for entrepreneurship workshop, as we are opening stalls to sell things and raise funds for MINDS organisation. Combined class wif 3n5, and it's at the music room, shiok man! Lols. The workshop was very fun as we have music to listen while the instructor tok to us, and the instructor crack lots of jokes and make us laugh until lyk mad, hahas. Super funny sia the instructor tok. And yesterday my phone spoil sia!! stupid lorh!! only use for 5 months only then spoil lerh, but my mother very gd she bring me go clementi central yesterday and she buy a 2nd hand phone and she use the 2nd hand phone and she let me use her phone. Then march i changing phone again, hahas. Finally can change my laggy phone away!! :D
So happy, Lols. But few days ago very angry wif my mother coz she keep scolding me coz i keep sms-ing, then very irritated and angry, then cannot pei JunShen tok alr, SRYS JUNSHEN :( Sianzz lorh. Feel very bad sia cannot pei him tok. Haizz. Nvm ba. can find a way out derh, but i still dun noe yet. Thinking... I dun wan stay at home sia, SUPER BORING!! But also cannot go out, i think i can rot at home lerh. Haizz :( Got no mood, think i will post until here lerh, post again another time.

2010-02-01T20:35:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " 2DAY VERY TIRED! "

This few days very tired, also dun noe y. maybe coz not enough sleep ba, yesterday msg wif JunShen until past mid-nite, lols. then 2day super tired! i lyk the sunset tat i took. very nice. lols.

it's lyk so cool larh, hahas. Past few day JunShen sick sia, lols. Hanyi they all keep saying is coz of the maggie, -.-" Haizz... But now he got better lerh, :D but noe my turn :( Got sore throat now! My throat very pain lorh!!!! Horrible sia!!! Juz now eat JunShen's medicine, lols. But still very pain leh, haizz nvm ba. Hope i can get well soon ba. Excited to serve in Usher man!! Hahas :D

very tired to post lerh, next time then post again. :D

2010-01-22T19:44:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " 2day skool was not too bad. Juz very tired! "

2day very tired, also dun noe y. Juz tat towards the end of skool feel very moodless coz of somethings. I juz felt very wired, I really very scared juz now, i hope tat he wun do something stupid ba, really very worried. coz i feel tat he seriously very wired juz now, hope tat everything will be fine :D very tired to post lerh. Byes.

2010-01-15T20:19:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " 2day was a terrible day for me! "

2day was Julian's last day skool in KR, lols. He going to Gan Eng Seng. Hahas. :D After skool went to the canteen and celebrated minqi, Julian and Rayan Birthdays, hahas. HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO YOUR! Hahas. Hope tat Julian will be able to get use to tat skool, hahas. Wish him all the best! :D Jiayous. After celebrating went to makan then went for band, was doing sectionals almost the whole prac, haizz, very tired man! then after tat got combined band then pack up and went market eat dinner then ask Nelson pei me go spec shop and take my spec, finally got my new spec alr! hahas, wearing it 2moro, hahas :D my left eye degree got increase, to lyk 225 degree and right eye nv change remain as 175 degree, hahas. :D my left eye very weak, lols. I now super tired alr, shall blog another time. Byes! :D

2010-01-14T18:46:00.005+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " SUPER TIRED! "

Super tired man! hahas. 2day got sec 1 audition, haizz. but awhile only, hahas. then went home rest, hahas. I have sth to say to 2 person, one is BOON KHIM another one is JASON; PANDA!

BOON KHIM: Hey Ah Boon! Really srys bout last sat the thing, actually i have fault too, not only u and Jason. Srys 4 throwing thing at u tat time. And thx 4 being honest wif me and telling me how u feel tat time. :D Srys for throwing my temper at u.

JASON: Hey PANDA! Really srys 4 wat i've done during sat, not really ur fault, part of it was my fault too, Srys for throwing my temper at ur, and is ur first time seeing me so angry ba, hahas lols. anw wateva tat has happened is in the past alr yeah, we are still Best Friend yah. hahas. :D Really srys.

** Hey Boys Really srys bout the sat thing, i feel tat i'm at fault too, for throwing my temper at ur, really SORRY, pls forgive me. And i hope tat we all learn a lesson thru tis yeah! hahas :D we are still friends yeah. hahas :) if anything lyk tis happen again, i will try to tok it out yeah, hahas. :D i promise. :) have to die to myself. In the process of learning, thx boon Khim for ur honesty too. :D

SORRY TO: BOON KHIM AND JASON;PANDA!

2010-01-07T19:13:00.006+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: "Skool was okok for me.. "

So fast 1st week of skool ending lerh, time flies man! hahas. Thank God tat i go into the class tat i wanted! POA! hahas. was happy to be in 3N3 ( My Class ). But sadly Hanyi not in our class lerh, miss her man! <3 but recess time i will go wif her, hahas. :D Actually was not ready to go back to skool as i got lots of fears tat comes to my mind, so abit scared to go back skool. But now ok lerh bah i think? Really thank God tat i think the thing wil happened but nv. hahas. :D God is really awesome man! :P I also wan thank God for putting me into the class com. can use it as an opportunity to serve God and my classmates.

Here are all our class sub teacher:

English: Dr Patricia Lau

Maths: Mr Raja

Physics: Mr Asan

Chem: Mr Lai W.L

MT: Miss Lim Kai Wen

Social Study & Geo: Mrs Melanie Tee

POA: Mr Nicolas Chan

CD: Mr Chan K.H

PE: Ms Steff Chan
Form Teacher: Miss Lim Kai Wen.

Almost all the teacher nv teach us b4 derh, hahas. Some of the lessons are abit boring. haizz. but i hope tat i can focus ba, even though the lessons are boring. :D 1st week of skool ending soon! hahas :D Looking forward to Sat, our church's opening ceromony, hahas. hanyi and vanessa going, hahas. Very excited. Got lots of things will be going on, on tat day, hahas. Not forgeting to look forward to God's day too, on sun, having service! hahas, and LTS i think? :D shall post another time, Byes. :D

2010-01-01T14:50:00.002+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Happy New Year! VERY TIRED, Yesterday reach home at 1plus am, "

On tues:

Went out wif PANDA and Jiaxuan, actually got Nelson also but he cannot make it, everytime lyk tat derh, xi guan jiu hao. Hahas. but b4 tat meet jiaxuan first, to buy my boyfriend tee again, hahas, but tis time round is brown. hahas. :D Buying it to wear on thanks giving service. Then 3plus PANDA cum find us, then pei him go see his iphone stuff, coz he say he wan to change to iphone next year, i think so? hahas. Went to see which one got the cheapest plan, hahas. :D After tat we slack at the staircase, and PANDA pang seh us go shopping himself, so bad. But then a while he cum back alr. then we went to the food court and eat dinner, then sent jiaxuan to bus stop and take bus, then ask PANDA pei me go mrt station, actually he dun wan but in the end he pei me, hahas. Thx ahh, PANDA! :D In the train was super crowded, the train is flood wif ppl man. hahas. so pack, enjoyed my day wif them, hahas. Next time go out again yeah, hahas. I will make sure nelson go the next time round, hahas. :D

On wed:

This is a brick put 2gether for our cell, hahas. It's very meaningful. The small hand represent us and the big ahnd represent GOD, We can do great things 2gether wif GOD, and only wif GOD.

I lyk it man, very meaningful, and it is done by our cell leader, Jasmine. Have great time in cell, we play games and have sharing wif one another, have a fruitful time. :D

Yesterday...

In the morning got band until afternoon. very tired. Then after tat went makan wif Aveline, Joleen, shermine and Limin, went to Sumo house. Hahas. Then went home and write cards for ppl. But cannot finish, then have to give some of them 2moro. Hahas. :D Then meet everyone at clementi mrt station at 6.30pm, then headed to church, coz it was thanks giving service, hahas. When the service started thr were videos and performances. very interesting, lols. When the little kid perform they look so cute, hahas, when it's melissa's time to act it was so funny, we all laugh until lyk crazy, Hahas. but she act very good. After the service, PANDA told me tat he lost the PANDA tat i gave him he say maybe at Darren hse, then i told him to go and find the PANDA back, but in the end really is at Darren hse, he getting back the PANDA 2moro, hahas. :D After tat we all went to level 5 and see fire work, it was very nice man, the fire works, we all were lyk cheering and very noisy, hahas. and i was taking the video of the fire works. This year fire works was very nice, after we have watch the fire works, we all took a group photo as a zone and then we all headed back to mrt station to take train home, and in the train there are alot of ppl. but luckly we are sitting down, dun have to stand. Then walked back home wif Nelson and keegan. Reach home bout 1plus am. SUPER TIRED man.

Appreciation to:

Aveline: Sweetheart, Thx 4 being a good sis to me when i'm down, and always be thr 4 me. Thx 4 discipling me to let me noe GOD more. Continue to stay happy and cheerful yeah, and to trust in GOD, Hope tat our friendship will be deeper and Jiayous in ur studies yeah. LOVE YOU TO THE MAX!! <3

Nelson: Kor, Thx 4 being my kor, u r awesome yeah! hahas. Thx 4 everything u have done, really appreciate it, i hope tat i will get to noe u more in year 2010, and to build deeper friendship wif u. Continue to stay hype and happy, :D Jiayous in ur studies yeah, 'N' level yeah, must study hard!

Kelvin: Daddy, Thx for being a big bro to me yeah! and all the concern u have gave me, really thx God 4 u. Thx 4 bringing lots of joy and laughter to everyone. Hope to noe u more yeah! :D Continue to stay cheerful yeah! :D Jiayous in ur NS, hahas :D All the best!

Jason: PANDA! Thx 4 being a wonderful friend to me, hahas. Although noe u not very long, but i hope to noe u more yeah! hahas :D Thx for bringing so much laughter and joy, you are a very cheerful boy, hahas. continue to stay cheerful lyk how u have yeah! Jiayous in ur studies ahh, hahas. :D All the best!

Jiaxuan: Jie, Thx 4 being a good sis to me. :D really enjoy going out wif u. Hahas. i hope tat i will be able to noe u more yeah! and our friendship will go deeper. I hope tat u will stay strong in GOD no matter wat happens k? Dun give up! Continue to stay cheerful, hype and happy, yeah! :D LOVE YOU LOTS <3

2009-12-29T12:10:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " This year christmas was fun! Cool... "

I lyk tis year's christmas man!! So fun!! hahas. Especially the christmas musical at my church, was very nice, i lyk the performances, but only took very few pic only, but nvm, next time be, hahas. :D On sat our zone having christmas party, and we must dress up lyk a geek, hahas. i wear the geeky specs so funny, lols, but i enjoyed the party, have a great time wif my zone ppl.

nth much to blog anymore also quite tired to blog. Byes. :)

2009-12-25T12:24:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Went out yesterday. FUN! "

yesterday went out wif Jiaxuan and PANDA!! and actually Nelson also derh but in the end he nv go. Was fun, and is the first time going out wif them, lols. meet them at somerset mrt station, i was the first to reach thr and waited for them then after tat jiaxuan came, and then receive PANDA msg saying tat he will be late, Haizz... then we waited for him, then he say meet him at ochard mrt station, then me and jiaxuan have to walk to orchard mrt ststion, when we reach liao, then called him then he say we at whr then we told him whr we were and we waited still not yet see him then called him again then he went to the wrong side, HAHAS!! super funny sia then after tat headed to Ion and shop, but thr got nth to shop derh, quite boring then we go round the ochard, hahas. Then the PANDA keep bullying me :( then purposely nv tok to him, hahas. was playing wif him derh larh, hahas. he keep making me laugh derh. lols. then when PANDA go home lerh, we went to Bugis and buy my mother Watch and then headed home wif Jiaxuan., And eat dinner wif my family. Next time i wan to go out wif them again, yeah... :D

2009-12-17T21:12:00.005+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: CAMP E.R WAS FUN!! ENJOYED MYSELF TOO... AWESOME!!!!!

Quite tired 2day, shall go into detail bout the camp next time...

I enjoyed myself during the camp!! FUN FUN FUN... :D

DETAILS...

Day 1: meet my zone ppl at clementi mrt station at 10.15am. Abit early but nvm, coz very excited for the camp, hahas :D then we waited for everyone to reach then we went to take bus, then got alot of ppl coz we going wif the north zone ppl also, LOLS. And the bus was quite packed, Hahas. but it's ok. the bus is almost filled wif our youth ppl , cool... and when we reached salvation army, we went to the canteen and settle down then we played games among our zone, the games was quite boring, no one wan to play. then after that the rest of the youths are here alr then we break up into our games group and we played the first game was the balloon game, need to brust the mostballoons using the pump, and i am the first to start and was quite scared but after i brust the balloon i not nerverse anymore and it so called overcome my fears, hahas :D then after tat we played a game tat we need to go around asking ppl to sign on the list of things tat is related to them, not awhile got ppl fainted but is juz a prank. Hahas :D wat a joke... then after tat we went to a open area and we played a game, which we need to transport " blood " tat game was fun too, hahas, :D then after tat we headed back to salvation army to do our props tat represent our group, then after tat our group got to stay back and help to move the tables and chairs, then we go to our rooms to put our stuff and rest then we were quite noisy in the room, lols :D after tat we have to prepare to service, need to change and stuff. then went to the cantten and have our dinner, YUM YUM :)) the food was nice... then after tat we proceed to the service hall for service and we have to wait outside first coz the worship team need to practise... During the service was cool.... we were all very excited, hahas :D And pastor Matt was our invited speaker for the whole camp and he tok very funny, he crack alot of jokes and he make us laugh until lyk crazy, LOLS. and GOD move powerfully in the service too and God spoke sth to me really deep and he assured me too... :)) and service end lyk 11plus, and we all headed back to our rooms and rest, slept at around 1plus then woke up at 3plus then sleep back again then woke up at 5plus again, couldn't sleep well, also dun noe y? so second day quite tired.

Day 2: Do devotion in the morning, then ate breakfast, went 4 service after tat, was cool, pastor matt tok lots of jokes wif us, i laugh until stomach very pain, lols. He say tat during the nite service, God will cum and do the refinement in us, was looking forward to tat, After service we got games, but b4 tat we go makan first, but sth happened after the service and i got no appetite to eat, and actually got no mood to play games too... But when playing the games tat time, feel better lerh, so continued to played, and i think the games quite fun too, hahas. :D And i really lyk the games, ((: then after tat headed back to salvation army and rest in our rooms, and then prepare for service. Then headed to canteen and eat dinner, YUM YUM!! :D Then headed to service hall for service and the service was cool. God move mightly and i can sense his presence very strongly. God was awesome man!! Yeah... and we went back to our rooms lyk 12plus and we eat cup noodles then we went to bed lerh, very tired!! have a good sleep :))

Day 3: We all woke up late and then we rush to prpare our stuff and went to have devotion, then we headed to canteen and makan, hahas. Then went 4 service. then we have games, and we were playing water games, yeah... was fun man!! but whe we are playing 2nd game tat time it started to rain so we have to go back to salvation army and we settle down in the canteen and we have sharing in our groups then we headed back to our rooms and rest, and it was finale service and God really move powerfully and mightly and pastor Lovleen wan us to write down on a paper wat r the things tat we need to burn away and i wrote quite alot of stuff and when is our turn we have to go out to the carpark and wait while waiting i look at the sky and the stars was shinning very brightly and it's very nice!! and we throw the paper into the fire and i wan to tell God tat i have nth to do wif all those things anymore... and after tat we have sharing among our cell group and then headed back to our rooms and we ate cup noodles again, hahas then have a tok wif Janice and Adel, then we went to bed lyk 2plus? and i slept well, hahas.

Day 4, last day of the camp: We all woke up late again, hahas. i think everyone was tired, and we do devotion and had breakfast and the service was cool. Everyone go crazy man!!! we all running and jumping around the service hall during praise and worship, and i fell down 2 times, hahas. Ran wif Janice, was cool... really felt tat freedom in me yeah... and after the service we all took group photo as a youth and tertiary, hahas. then went round to take photo wif ppl, hahas. i lyk all the photos man!! was very nice... then my zone ppl decided to go clementi and eat Sumo house, hahas. and the south zone was thr too. lols quite crowded, then we slack in the Sumo House for a while then i headed home...

I LOVE GOD!! HE IS AWESOME!!

2009-12-09T13:02:00.002+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: Wat should i do?? I'm very confused now.

Very long nv blog lerh, my blog going to die soon, lols. Got no mood to update so nv update. Tis few days got lots of things happened which i dun noe wat to do also. I'm juz lyk the baby in the photo, got confused the more i think. I seriously dun noe how to tell the person, my mind now is juz very messy and wif lots of doubts. I juz couldn't get an ans. Wat should i do?? I'm very troubled now!!!! How i wish i dun have to face all tis things!!!! But i noe i can't.....

** To someone: I really go and think thru wat they have told me. I juz got alot of doubts in my mind, u sure u tis time round is serious wif wat u have asked me? I think u go and think thru again, do u think tat i suit u? Actually i think tat i dun suit u. I wan u to go and think thru again coz i dun wan u to regret wif the things tat u r doing now. I wan u to be sure wif wat u r doing first b4 u ask me tat question again.

2009-12-04T13:34:00.003+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I HATE MY MOOD YESTERDAY!! "

HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST MEI; HANYI!! <3

Yesterday went to WCPark and celebrate hanyi b'day, hahas. Went to selin shop and get her cake and headed to WCPark and waited 4 2ppl very long, lols. then went to the stage area thr and celebrate. After tat we went to Jurong Safra and play pool, lols. but i nv play. Zzzz. then after tat went to JP and makan, then we go arcade and play. After tat walk walk for a while then headed to mrt station and went to some other place, hahas. (: my mood was not very gd yeasterday but overall i still enjoyed myself. hahas. Lastly wan to tell hanyi: HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! <3 LOVES HER TO THE MAX!!!!!

2009-11-20T12:22:00.003+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: I HATE MYSELF!!!!! I'M SO STUPID!!!!! AND I HATE HIM!!!!!!

Yesterday went Sento sa wif Aveline, Adel, Jasmine, Janice and Dianah. Hahas :D We went to habour front find Aveline and Jasmine first and it's was raining, Sigh. then we stay at habour front 4 a while then we went to sentosa, Lols (: Finally got the blue colour ticket tat i wanted, lols :D When we reach Siloso beach we played Volleyball at the shelter then after tat we went into the sea to play water, lols, but it was fun even though is raining. But sad tat yesterday was also class BBQ i nv go , my mother dun let me go, stupid sia. Nvm i planning class party on december, tis time round i must go. Lols. But i think tat they have enjoyed themselves, hahas :D Today is the last day of chalet lerh, time flies, hahas :D And 2day is mei and willie's 1st month, cangrats. Hahas. LAST LONG!!! <3 Think i shall end here, BYES

2009-11-13T13:17:00.007+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Everything has changed "

Took tis pic from google, lols. very bored. Hahas. Holiday is SUPER BORING!!!!! Can't stand it!!!! I'm at home ROTTING!!!!!! Haizz, yesterday webt swimming wif Adel, Aveline and Janice, was fun, hahas :D we enjoyed ourselves, Hehes. think i will end here, got nth to say lerh!!

I HATE HOLIDAY!!

2moro having bbq, hahas. Finally dun need to stay at home lerh, lols. :D and i hope tat Joleen can go. Coz she not yet give me ans if she can go anot, Hope she can go :DD HAHAS....

2009-11-05T13:24:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " LOVE? NOT ANYMORE! "

Holiday start lerh, so bored, Haizz. Thr is a class chalet cuming up, but my mother dun let me go, I WAN GO LORH!!! But she dun let, i also dun noe wat's wrong wif going to chalet?? Y can't stay over nite outside? Stupid sia!!!! So Irritating!!!! I hope i can go ba. Haizz time flies, so fast holiday alr, Miss the class LOTS!!!! Coz next year some of them not in the same class as us lerh, so sianzz. Haizz. Saded :(( REALLY GOING TO MISS THEM LOTS!!!! <3 wish i could be able to spend more time wif the class lorh, :( Miss all those times we are together. :D

I have think thru 4 very long and i have decided tat it's really time to let u go, no matter how difficult i noe i'm going to let go, coz it's better for the both of us, coz when love is force it will bring no happiness, so rather let go, and both of us will be more happy ba, although sad and dun bare to let go, but got to tell myself i have to, and also no point holding on. I really regretted 4 not resolving some misunderstanding tat we have, but i noe it's to late to say anything lerh. But i have nv regretted loving u.

2009-10-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " It's time to say GOODBYE, BYES MY LOVE x/3 :( "

Yesterday noe wat course we all going to, got into POA, so happy and happy bcoz someone also went into the same course as me, lols. But dun noe if can see the person next year anot?? Haizz, SADED :( Happy 4 Minqi, coz she say she scared tat she cannot go into POA, but in the end she went into, hahas. :D Sad bcoz next year me and mei different class lerh, cannot get to tok to each other often anymore, Haizz. Today woke up late so nv go skool, haizz. wanted to go skool derh lorh coz 2day got sec 2 enrichment then nv go, haizz. stupid larh!!! Then juz now mei call me nv on phone, srys mei nv on phone then let u wait for me, and Una also waited 4 me at the bus stop then nv on phone also. Really srys. Also dun noe y tis few days so tired. haizz. Zzzz.

whenever i close my eyes all my mind is filled wif u, although i dun noe wat really is ur ans but nvm got to learn to be patient, or maybe u r not going to tell me wat ur ans is ba, actually i dun mind u dun tell me, but i juz wan to noe ur honest ans tat's all, haizz. Sometime i am awake during mid nites, couldn't sleep juz thinking of u, and my tears would juz flow down from my eyes. I really dun noe wat i'm going to do next???

2009-10-22T17:34:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I alr now tat it will happened and i think no point asking u lerh ba. "

20th oct 09...

On tues, after Awards' Day Reheasal, hanyi msg me whr i am, lols then i tell her i juz ended band then she called me then she kup the call b4 i call coz she saw me, lols. Then she was wif Willie, lols. Then after tat we went to buy bubble tea then on the bus, Then Willie msg Hanyi sth very shocking, hahas. Anw wish Hanyi and Willie last long k? d:

Today...

2day sad sia, haizz sth happened. I really hope i can get an ans, but didn't. I also dun noe wat to do lorh. Nvm larh, dun wan tell then dun tell lorh!!! I dun wan care alr larh!!! Very tired sia keep think of tis kind of tis thing, stupid sia. Got no moood to post lerh, So sianzz ;(

i really hope tat u

can give me a ans

but i wun force u if u

dun wan tell, anw

i also noe ur ans is

no derh, so no point

asking u also. But i juz

u to tell me ur honest ans

if no then juz say no,

SUPER ANGRY!!!

2009-10-16T16:55:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " This time round u r really leaving lerh, maybe cannot see u anymore lerh. "

2day was quite sad bout sth, but i not sure whether the thing is true anot but i think it is, and i really dun noe wat to do, and i also cannot do anything. Haizz, 2day juz dun have the mood. ); Got back all the results lerh, all pass except 4 history but nvm larh. Then mei also quite sad bcoz of her result tried to comfort her juz now then she's fine lerh, hahas. Mei dun worry larh i'm sure u can promote derh, dun think too much k? Jie love u <3 hahas and Minqi also i'm sure u also can go in to the course tat u wanted, dun worry, LOVES u too <3. i juz hope tat everyone can promote and go into the course they wan, gd luck everybody. think shall end here lerh, dun really have the mood to post, TCTC.

missing him. <3

every tears i shed

it means how much

i really care and love u,

although u r leaving

i still really hope tat u r not

leaving, bcoz i really

will miss u derh, i also

cannot be so selfish if

u really wan to leave

i also cannot do anything

but wish u all the best

i really dun noe wat will

happened to me when u leave

lerh, juz hope tat i can get over it ba

and not to be sad but be strong

and brave, and every tears i shed is

all worth it derh.

2009-10-15T15:51:00.003+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I juz realise tat i still can't get over u. Love really make can make someone be very addicted lyk drugs lyk tat. "

on tues...

on tues went Imm wif aveline and adel. we went thr to walk walk then tok, then eat also. Then after tat minqi say tat she in Imm also then she wif Joleen and Kaibin. went to tok wif them 4 a while then go makan at LJS, but i ate sushi, lols then after tat went daiso walk walk as requested from adel, hahas. Then again saw minqi they all then we all went to daiso 2gether, lols. then we at daiso very long, but minqi they all went first alr then we went to take bus and adel brought me a cup and i lyk it alot, anw thx adel <3 . Then went down to market and find my mother then Hanyi;mei told me tat Shawn, willie and her going market find me, lols then when they reach market shawn and willie make alot of noise lorh lyk their market lyk tat then me and Hanyi down thr laughing at their Jokes, lols then me and Hanyi went to plaza and slack while Shawn and willie went home. we slack until bout 8pm lyk tat then went back market then sent Hanyi home.

Today...

Today got back history paper, fail by one mark lorh, lols. Haizz nvm larh, then got back maths i pass hahas so happy very scared tat i will fail my maths but nv. Then got back sci also nv fail, very happy but not all the papers get back alr. Sianzz. now i juz hope tat minqi wun worry so much tat she cannnot get into POA, coz i noe tat she can make it derh. Hope tat everyone can go into the course they want. Hahas. TCTC, LOVES <3

2009-10-06T17:43:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I'm still trying to let go, I need some more time, it's a difficult process to go through. "

Nv post 4 a few days lerh, coz busy studying 4 End Year, lols. Very stress!!! 2day was history test, and i nv manage to finish the paper got lyk 1 and half ques nv do!!! Haizz hope i'll not fail ba, if fail then die lerh, now everyday chiong-ing to study coz need to pass End Year if not maybe cannot promote to sec 3 lerh, Need to work SUPER HARD!!! Ltr got to revise 4 my maths, coz lots of topics need to study, coz almost everything Mr Helmy teach derh i 4got liao, haizz. got to re-read everything again, but juz got to hang on, soon will be over derh, after exam can slack all i wan alr, hahas d: 3 more subject to go!!! JIAYOUS!!! Gtg study lerh, lols. Work hard ba everybody, Gd Luck!! (: STUDY STUDY STUDY!!!

2009-10-02T21:16:00.000+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: Learning to let him go, maybe is the best solution, no point carry on lyk tis. "

Skool as usual 2day, nth funny happened but sth make me very pissed off, juz got irritated!!!! Haizz, nth much to tok bout 2day, also got no mood to post, sianzz. Juz now was studying maths and almost all the things Mr Helmy teach derh i 4got liao, oh no!!!!! got to revise everything again if not will fail derh!!!! very scared to fail my maths, bcoz i wan to go POA!!!! so must start to work hard lerh!!!! No time for fun now!!!! Got to buck up lerh, if not i sure die derh, haizz. Hope tat i can pass ba. Work hard now and play hard after tat, hahas :D 2moro got sci tutorial, got to wake up early again, hahas. but is worth it, can take the chance to do it as revision to recall wat was being taught, hehes. Got to wake up at 7am lyk tat, haizz. SUPER TIRED!!! hmmm, juz wan to wish all my friends and Gans all the best 4 ur End Year, Jiayous!!! Gd luck!! (: We shall all work Hard together!!! Think i shall and here, nites, sweet sweet dreams...

2009-10-01T18:59:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Maybe is time to let go lerh. "

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!! :D

Yesterday was my birthday, was very excited coz my friends helping me to celebrate, hahas :D

After skool went to change in to class tee, coz i think i some how noe tat they are plainy water games, lols. Then went to find Mr Lee ask if he wan to cum anot then he say ltr then went to WCPark alone coz they all go and get cake from Selin, anw thx Selin 4 treating the cake. Then after tat we played water bombs, it was super fun but the bombs so fast no more lerh then we all also dun wan walk to sheng siong and buy coz need time also, when i was doing something then 2 person smash cream on my face 2 time, lols it was lyk very shocking, hahas. Make my hair become so oily then got the cream smell, the more u smell the more u feel lyk vomiting, haizz. When i went home need to wash bout 2 times to make sure my hair dun have the smell and it's not oily. But overall i really enjoyed myself, thx to my friend 4 organising the party, hahas. LOVES <33 and i really love the present alot, thx 4 tat also, hahas. d: Anw End Year Exam cuming lerh, wishes everyone all the best 4 End Year and jiayous ba, take cares.

2009-09-28T21:02:00.002+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " It is very easy to fall in love wif someone, but is difficult to let go of someone u really love. "

On Sat...

On sat was sci remedial, meet MinQi they all at the clementi interchange, then Jo late need to wait 4 her coz she at home finding her ez-link card then she ask us to wait u her so we waited for her, and we was late 4 remedial alr then got ppl waiting 4 us at the CC bus stop thr, then after tat headed to skool, when we went in to the class, only got lyk 4 ppl in the class only, is lyk so less ppl larh, haizz. Then after tutorial went to mac wif them to eat mac the n waited 4 them to eat finish, after tat they all follow me to go buy the thing i need find very long cannot find then when we went to the party shop, then we found it, haizz. very tired sia, find so long then find until, anw still have to thx MinQi, Kaibin, HanJun and ryan for pei-ing to find, really thx them alot. d:

Today...

2day was quite a happy day 4 me, hahas. Coz my b'day is in 2 days time, lols. really excited coz my classmate help me celebrate, hahas. d: Really very happy. LOVES them lots <33 Nth much to post bout lerh, today quite tired, sianzz . Was very fun juz now, MinQi, Jo and Kaibin cum my hse then we all have a great time together, hahas lols. We were laughing lyk mad larh, lols.

2009-09-25T18:51:00.002+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I have nv regretted loving u, so pls dun ever let me regret. Bcoz i really love u. "

2day skool as usual but 2day is end of year test, English paper 1 and MT paper 1. I think the paper quite easy larh, but dun noe can pass anot, haizz. I now SUPER TIRED so will post short one today, some more 2moro still got remedial, haizz must wake up early. 7.30 must reach skool lerh, sianzz. Think shall end here, nites sweet sweet dreams.

TO Someone: Hope u get well soon (: Take cares, LOVES<3

2009-09-22T19:48:00.001+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " Really hope tat we are not even in the same skool, so i dun even noe u and my life will not be lyk tat, bcoz of u my life is totally diferent. "

2day skool re-open from hari raya. Quite excited to go back to skool to see my friends, hahas lols. 2day nearly late coz woke up a bit ltr coz meeting una they all at my hse bus stop thr, and we always meet in the morning. Leave hse bout 6.55am lyk tat, tot they all left lerh but lucky they not yet leave. Then when i reach the bus stop Azira not yet go down the bus stop and we couldn't wait 4 her coz if we wait 4 her we scared we will all be late lyk last time, then got detention. so Azira srys nv wait 4 u, when reach skool went into gerneral office wif Atikah to take log book and class key then walk the long way to the hall, then saw Jo and MinQi at level 2 outside band room thr then when up thr to find them they were not thr so headed to hall then at the balcony thr saw them so when to tok wif them then MinQi got media club duty, ask her y nv go, she say waiting for Shuning so pei her wait wif Jo then after tat went to hall lerh. During music period Ms Lim say next week got test on the belleplate then must go and form groups of 7 but our grourp got 8 ppl, lols then we prac on twinkle twinkle little star, then was super fuuny one then we all keep down thr laughing then MinQi try to crack jokes then we all laugh until lyk mad, it was lyk so funny until we cannot stop laughing. After tat was D and T went back to class then when class chair when to open the door, the door cannot open then they went to the gerneral office to tell Mr Ngoh then he came to open, while waiting the whole class sat outside the class then when Mr Ngoh came and open the door we all chiong in to the class coz need to get newspaper to do the D and T project then some of the ppl when to the cupboard and find see have anot then while they are finding i was also finding and i was in front of the cupboard and some of them was behind and they all lyk pushing to the cupboard to the front and the cupboard nearly fall but nv, then i went away from the cupboard then i tell them say they can dun anyhow push anot and the cupboard nearly fall on me then they nv say anything. Then after Ms Goh finish teaching the lesson then i went to 2N4 to ask 4 newspaper coz got not enough then Mrs Sim only gave me 3 stacks of newspaper coz cannot find anymore alr so nvm lorh went back to class, then do the structure until recess time. After recess was art doing art test need to pass up by 2moro, haizz. After tat was math Teacher nv cum got relieve teacher then do the work tat teacher give , then after tat was EL but change period wif Lit then got test need to do i think the test quite ok larh, but dun noe if can pass anot, after the test was EL then teacher came in and dun noe tok bout wat, coz was toking to ppl then nv hear wat teacher say but the teacher also nv teach only tok bout readers' digest. Then went 4 assembly, 2day end quite early leh, coz was some poem competition so end quite early, then after tat went 4 love express and 2day was the last session lerh, felt a bit sad coz actually love express is not tat boring also then took group photo then went of lerh. Took bus wif Jo then went home, and 2day was super angry wif one person make me so angry!!!! Stupid sia!!!! Make my day so sianzz!!!!! destroy my mood also!!!!! sianzz, think i shall end here lerh post too long liao, lols d:

2009-09-21T21:11:00.003+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I really hope tat from the start i dun even noe u, so now we will not be lyk tat, and i rather we be strangers. "

2day nth much to say bout, and very tired 2day so my post shall be short and sweet d: 2moro skool re-open lerh, hahas. So haapy. :D no need to stay at home and rot lerh, lols (: some more can see my friends, :) can tok tok again. Looking forward to 2moro and my B'DAY!!! 09 more days to go, hehes :DD But dun noe y juz got a feeling tat when my b'day sth bad will happen, hmmm, maybe think too much lerh ba, hope tat is not wat i think so on my b'day. Juz expect myself to be HAPPY on my b'day!!!! :DD SMILE (: Think i shall end here, Nites (: Sweet Sweet Dreams...

2009-09-20T21:40:00.002+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " It doesn't matter to u anyway, we are juz in both different world. "

yesterday...

me.. (:

me and Siewli...

Yesterday went to WCP to study, but b4 tat was raining, :( Sad. But i still went, lols :D When i reach thr it was still raining, then went on to study my sci and do the sci worksheet and it's bout photosynthesis, hahas. studied for few hours then some went to play board games but i dun wan coz i think tat board games are quite boring so nv went wif them to play but i stay thr and tok to ppl, hahas. bout lyk 6plus alot of ppl going off lerh then me , siewli and some other ppl stay thr 4 until 7plus then we go off and coz waiting 4 christina;Baobei also, while waiting me and siewli went into the toilet and take photos, lols (: coz weare bored nth to do also so we went into the toilet and take photos. After tat took bus to market and find my mother than bout 9plus then go home, was quite tired yesterday, so nv update. Lols. (:

Nelson's baptism...

Brave boy, lols :D

CHRISTINA, NELSON AND ME!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! (: AWESOME!!!

GROUP PHOTO (:

TWO WIRED GUYS, LOLS :D

2day is Nelson;kor the baptism, hahas :D Kor HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! (: Really glad to see him taking the step of faith to follow God, although things happened b4 the baptism but he still have tat faith of wanting to be baptise, i can see tat he really wan to have tat closer relationnship wif God, really glad to see him making a stand 4 wat he wants (: hope tat after tis day he will have tat desire of wanting to serve God in every area of his life. He is a new creation :D Really very happy for him :P AND Kor no matter wat happends must rmb tat God is always wif u k? Jiayous and All the best d:

After Nelson;Kor the baptism went home to rest for a while then go and meet ka weng they all 4 gym, lols. :D wan to keep myself fit, hahas d: and i have decided to go every sunday, must start to exercise lerh if not will grow fat derh, lols :D waited at home 4 so long coz they went to eat after the baptism they lyk take dun noe how many years to eat sia, super long. waited at home 4 them until bout 5 lyk tat then went to meet them at clementi MRT station, and when i reach thr nv see them then call them, then they say they at home changing then ask me to go in the gym first but i dun wan, then went to 7-11 to buy drinks then headed to outside the sports hall thr and wait 4 them, then waited 4 them very long also, then when they cum i tell them say they lyk taking beauty contest lyk tat take so long to change, lols. then when we went in thr the gym close liao, haizz. D: then i tell them say wait 4 them the gym close liao, lols. then no choice went to ka weng hse downstair the running track thr to run but in the end we nv go run but we go to the train track thr to slack. and the scenary thr was very nice and Ka weng told me tat if take two stone and drop it into the river and if the two stone drop at the same time into the water then ur wish will cum true, then i go and try, and when i drop the two stones it both drop at the same time, but i dun noe if the wish i wish will cum true anot, hope so ba. And it was lyk bout 7 lyk tat lerh then have to go home also then we leave the track and i told ka weng tat next sunday i wan to go to the track thr again coz very nice and also coz i nv take photo, bcoz my phone tat time no batt lerh so nv have a chance to take, so sad, but next wekk i must take. hahas lols. And i have a gd news, is tat i and her the problem solve lerh, so happy :DD Finally is solve!!! LOLS :DD Nites :)

2009-09-18T20:59:00.005+08:00

YUNHAN SAYS: " I juz feel tat i'm all alone, when the moment u r leaving my world day by day, and i can do nth but to see us becuming further and futher apart. "

Skool as usual 2day, felt tat skool is becuming very bored, also dun noe y?? use to think tat cuming skool was quite fun coz can kill time and can be wif my friends (: During MT juz now got wat compo test, lols. so bored have to do coz is included in CA. no choice but to do, actually dun feel lyk doing derh, haizz D: After tat was sci, got back test paper, pass by half a mark, but it's ok at least got pass, hahas lols. Teacher say only lyk bout half the class pass the test if i'm not wrong, can't rmb lerh. Then during recess when 4 skipfit was fun 2day coz we played badminton, hahas. I played wif Sophina, then she told me say tat she dun really noe how to play then i tell her say nvm juz played i can teach her,then she played wif me then i slowly teach her how to play, was super fun and cool one 2day :DD had a great time(: Literature lesson was super bored, dun thr slack wif my friends and tok to them, the teacher always ask us write notes lorh, write until our hand very pain liao. So becum lazy to copy the notes lerh, so more the notes all very long lorh, then nv copy finish then she will juz go on derh, sianzz :( English got test again, haizz everyone is complaining y everytime got test derh?? also dun even noe y the teacher y wan give so many tests??? but then she say the test also included in CA, 20%. thne we all have to do lorh, bo bian. sianzz. But the test is lyk super easy larh, lyk pri skool english lyk tat, all bout grammer derh, not even 10 mins finish liao. Then after tat was math, again got test, aiyo!! TEST TEST TEST!! 3 TESTS IN ONE DAY!!!! Haizz, :( The maths paper was quite hard coz dun understand and dun noe how to do the questions and also bcoz nv study, 4got to bring my textbook home and study, Haizz :( maybe will fail my math tis time round, quite scared now, sigh. told Mr Helmy tat in nv do some questions then ne ask me y nv do, then i told him say i dun understand then he went to see my paper then he lyk nv say anything, felt abit bad also. Really hope tat i can pass my maths ba. And must start to chiong and study 4 EYE lerh, Jiayous ba to all my friends!!!! All the best, i noe ur can do it derh!! (:

2009-09-17T21:43:00.002+08:00

" Juz felt tat u r leaving my world bit by bit, and we r becoming lyk strangers. "

AVELINE; SWEETHEART <3

IT'S MY SWEETHEART AGAIN <3

KAWENG AND HIS FRIEND, RANDOM SHOOT

ME (: IN SKOOL UNIFORM, LOLS

2day skool was usual, nth special. Juz felt abit tired of going skool tis few days, also dun noe y?? sianzz D: Juz now during sci period was quite fun, coz teacher nv cum so got relieve teacher, lols. (: was toking craps wif MinQi, shazwina, Joleen and some other ppl can't rmb, lols. We were all laughing lyk mad, then the relieve teacher keep asking us to do the work so we tok and do the worksheet at the some time, it was quite fun during sci lesson. During PE actually should be playing ultimate disc but nv got to play coz raining, so sad :( coz i wanted to play, it was fun, but must wait until next week lerh, haizz. After skool went to the library to do history project, at first felt sianzz but after tat okok lerh, went in thr to cut out the infor then paste on the blank paper tat Ms Jane give. Then do research, copy and paste the infor to the microsoft work then click the print button once then tot tat nv print out then press again then go see the printer, print out 2 sets of the infor, then i was lyk down thr laughing larh, lols. super funny. After tat headed to canteen coz can stay at library until 3 only then we decided to go canteen and do the project then go eat also, then in canteen after eatingcontinue on wif the project then dun noe hu down thr crapping then i keep on laughing non stop until my stomach hurts, lols. It was quite fun doing the project 2day, coz i always think tat doing project is very boring derh, so i dun really lyk to do projects, 2day one let me feel tat doing project can be so fun, hahas :DD After doing the project went to meet Aveline;Sweetheart they all, while waiting 4 bus took photo of her and kaweng, lols. It was lyk so funny, then went somewhr wif Sweetheart until 6+ lyk tat then went to eat dinner wif her then headed home lerh and now msging wif MinQi <3, hahas, nites (: